The usual Ice Coffee, Expresso double shot

步步惊心

2012-01-27T23:42:00.000+08:00

WITHDRAWAL SYNDROME ALERT!
THERE ARE ENDING SPOLERS, SO DONT READ the post & WATCH the videos here IF YOU HAVE YET TO WATCH THE SHOW!

Yes, I finished the series yesterday and it sucks ):

But glad to hear a part 2 but based in the modern era. Hope to see more of 四阿哥 & Ruo Xi's relationship. This time please be a good ending, else man... TToTT Let them love in the next life, after all they had a tough previous life with so much obstacles and regrets

Anyway, besides 四阿哥 & Ruo Xi's relationship，十四阿哥 & Ruo Xi's relationship also made me awwww~ but sadly it was a short one. Overall  四阿哥 & Ruo Xi's relationship is still the best! Wae? Their love is so true, but their ending is not good at all! ): I used to like 八阿哥& Ruo Xi's relationship, but it was like a fling? I preferred 四阿哥 & Ruo Xi's love-hate relationship that lead to one that Ruo Xi "放不下也忘不掉". She even is selfish enough to forget all the rest of the 阿哥's relationship and only think about the times she spent with 四阿哥.

I love the OST ttm although it is so sad. But the songs match parts of the show so well that when I hear it, no matter how many times, I can visualize every scene. Well the scenes are only applicable to 四阿哥 & Ruo Xi's relationship! Hahaha, cause I'm obsessed with them!

I hope the part 2 will come out soon, but it only starts filming later this year which sucks big time TToTT, by then I won't be able to make it! Hahaha! Because of this show I got interested in Kang Xi Emperor's history. I find it fascinating!

The purpose of this post is for sharing the videos of the songs cause it's on repeat on my playlist. Because of this show I wish my chinese was better to understand most of the poems cause I would love to understand  四阿哥 & Ruo Xi's relationship better! hahaha~ ok enough of my fan girl rambles, watch the views below!

& CIAO~

*p/s: I'm starting to like Lin Gengxin! HE'S CUTE! ^^

Songs:

十四阿哥&Ruo Xi's relationship Scenes in BBJX

四阿哥 & Ruo Xi's relationship in BBJX

My favourite scenes  四阿哥 & Ruo Xi's relationship

CNY - Day 2

2012-01-25T19:56:00.000+08:00

Yes again pictures from day 2 of CNY that was more tiring than day 1.

My morning was spent watching my TV series, Scarlet Heart.

I hardly watch the olden time TV series but this one is just freaking awesome. LOVE EVERY BIT OF IT. But partly it is because of KEVIN CHENG! HAHAHA! But starting to like the 4th prince too! First historical TV series with a twist and it isn't boring. I'm trying to search for some of their quotes from the movie too. Too bad my chinese sucks so some of them I do not quite understand so I can't copy them down. I just love this drama so much!

I shall end here and continue with my show :P

As usual, images will help me tell all my story. :D

CNY - Day 1

2012-01-23T22:52:00.000+08:00

I'll leave the pictures to do the talking which they do better than words.

Enjoy.

Lunar New Year

2012-01-22T18:39:00.000+08:00

Hi folks!

Today's chinese new year eve? Having a great reunion dinner? Mine is pretty simple today, with my only my parents and my sis. But it's enough. I love their company! Can't wait for tomorrow to wear new clothes! Hehe.

But I'm pretty sad cause this year I didn't do anything to my hair!!! For the past 2 years I WILL ALWAYS DYE MY HAIR (once a year so it's not harmful to my hair) but this year... damn it! I regret not requesting it earlier ): So waiting after CNY to do it and doing dip dye with of course my parents agreement!!! (hohoho, even my dad didn't object hahaha!) Dark brown and red at the bottom. I wish I was more daring to try a light blue, teal or purple! ):

Anw this is a really short post that I want to rant about my hair not being dip dye by CNY.

HOPE EVERYONE IS HAVING A GREAT CHINESE NEW YEAR! (:
MAY THE DRAGON YEAR BRING PEOPLE FORTUNE, SUCCESS AND HAPPINESS!

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!

p/s: if possible I'll try to blog tomorrow with pictures (: ahh~ waiting for dinner now! I can eat a cow... mad hungry!!

2012-01-11T11:05:00.001+08:00

The first back to school post and it shouldn't be like this, but I can't help it.

I am going through a lot once and hating every single bit of it, so I can't help but blog all my emotions here!!!!!

I don't want to make this post seem very emotional, so yea, I'm just going with lyrics from one of James Morris's song. I have modified a little. I believe this short paragraph tells everything and need not have further elaboration.

" My heart is strong but my head is weak.

So much craziness surrounding me.

So much going on, it gets hard to breathe.

All my faith has gone, can anyone back it back to me.

I'm not sure about my priorities now.

I've lost site of where I'm meant to be. "

Emotional roller coaster leads to shopping to distress, so below are a few items that I got over the weekend. (I have got most of my chinese new year clothes before the end of the year so I didn't do much shopping but just getting the little stuff left that I have not get)

FINALLY A BIG SLING BAG THAT I LOVE!
Looking for a smaller bag, hope I can get that piece I saw from a blog shop.

SNAIL MAIL YESTERDAY!

Loving this top and the quality of it!

Ok, ending the post here.

Going to school soon too.

p/s: Did I mention how much I detest during-school-days-post?! All the fucked up emotions. I totally prefer my holidays or till then ... when I leave school. :/

The ones that turned 19th not too long ago

2012-01-02T20:15:00.000+08:00

Hello, my first post of 2012!!!

During the first day of the year I got to hang with my dearest 7! peeps, no one was left out AND it has been some time 7 of us gathered! Definitely with good company during the new year, what an awesome way to start the 2012! We went to the botanic gardens to celebrate Cally and Claudia's belated birthday. Tried a new location and did a different picnic style - take away pizza.

NEVER CELEBRATE AT BOTANIC GARDENS AFTER A 30 MINS WALK FROM THE CIRCLE LINE WITH THE BLAZING HOT SUN SHINING IN YOUR FACE!!! By the time we walk to the symphony stage, we were all dying of hunger and thirst... oh not forgetting smelly, sticky and hot. TOTALLY DEPRIVE OF THE AIR-CON! Marina Barrage is a better location at least there is definitely breeze but a little small in terms of the land area. ><

Anyway, we left the location at 3+ pm, stayed there for 2 hours, we all left. Took the train back home. Super exhausted due to waking up early for the past few days. So that was my first day of the year. Below are the photos taken (some of them not all):

School starts tomorrow, SIGH. Waking up early now (9am lessons!!!) and freaked out as usual despite keeping my calm composure at home. More sorrowful and swearing post again (hopefully not)!!! I think the upcoming modules are gonna be hard core and more pressure will be put upon me!! I yet again worry even before trying. :/ I hope the 8 weeks will be fine and after that I can welcome the holiday with so much joy!!! PLEASE BE GOOD TO ME TERM B OF 2.2! PRETTY PLEASE! T_T

P/S: CNY is coming really soon, whoa pretty fast! >< Oh yea, might not blog as often as before too.

Last post for 2011

2011-12-31T22:46:00.002+08:00

Hey folks what are you doing this news year eve???

I believe people are every out preparing to countdown later tonight. Well, as for me I'm home going to hit the bed early tonight with hopes of 2012 being a good year. I guess I am too old for the crowds and all that partying teens my age will enjoy. My life is a bore eh? Anyway, this post is to sum up all the ups and downs faced in 2011, my reflection of 2011 and my thoughts.

2011 definitely had all it's drama. Me... trying to re-adapt to my school life (term based), school work, made new friends, speaking to strangers, worked a whole month, etc. This year's drama was way more than all the years I have ever seen. But I am glad because of such dramas, my family has come closer. I am also glad that me and my sis are closer too, but we still do quarrel like sure crazy. People say problems faced are what make people grow. I know I don't seem to make any sense cause I not 100% focused due to using brain cells to create the photo collage. :X

Anw, I hope 2012 will be a great year for my loved ones and best friends, more joy, no more sorrow and drama, good results, good health and fortune. Everyone living in peace and harmony. And oh yes! Good health to all!!!

Before I end, here is my 2012 resolution:
- do well in school (work harder)
- sleep early, wake up early
- LOSE SOME WEIGHT!
- be more cheerful during school days
- mingle with people, instead of being sooo introvert
- hang out with my relatives more often
- go overseas *ahem* USA baby~
(that's roughly all I can think of for now, I believe I'll have more to add on as the time goes by :P)

[newly added on 020112]
- be who I really am and not typical

Alright, everyone have a great end to 2011 and an awesome start to 2012.

Me signing off to rest my tired brain and wake early for an awesome time with my lovely peeps to have an amazing start to my 2012!

MERRY X'MAS!

2011-12-25T00:04:00.002+08:00

Merry X'mas folks!

This is a little something I did using Flash and Photoshop. It is inspired by Google's doodle.

Today's my sis birthday as well! HAPPY BIRTHDAY SIS! (:

I'm keeping the post short, due to the flu I caught over the past few days T_T AND a long bus day tomorrow so ending I'll end the post here.

NEW LAYOUT FOR 2012!

2011-12-21T22:28:00.000+08:00

Yes this is the new layout, some issues here and there, but I think I'll do the changes another day.

I am having a serious shoulder ache right now!

So I am off to watch PSYCH! :D

We are young

2011-12-08T13:19:00.001+08:00

LOVING THIS SONG FROM GLEE!!!

I know I had a hard time in sem 2.2 term A, but I am still being optimistic about on everything and go with my flow and stop trying so hard as well. Just going to end the remaining 23 days of 2011 with this attitude.

So if by the time the bar closes and you feel like falling down, I’ll carry you home tonight...

Cuteness overload!

2011-11-29T23:08:00.000+08:00

PHONE COMING SOON IN 2012...

So for now leave you with my cover cuteness

(yes, I bought this without my phone first cause its so darn cute to resist!)

The bigger you are the harder you fall.

2011-11-25T00:09:00.000+08:00

Thanks KARMIN for this awesome song.
Yes I didn't share it the other time cause I only find the song catchy, but now ... THE LYRICS ARE LIKE GAH AMAZING! Hahah, KISS MY OH MY GAH! xD

" You think you're the star of the show, but I'm about to let you know I'm here to crash your party. You're so misunderstood, cause you're so complex. And you claim you're so low key Well you coulda fooled me, mister TMZ! "

"THERE'S NO ROOM IN MY LIFE FOR AN EGO YOUR SIZE!"

dying soon

2011-11-23T08:42:00.000+08:00

NIGHTMARE TOMORROW. INP PRACIAL TEST. I'M SO FREAKING DOOMED!!! T_T
I TOTALLY FORGOT EVERY THING ABOUT PROGRAMMING.

JUST HOPE TO PASS. PLEASE GODS!!!
HELP ME TO JUST GET A PASSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS!!

Jar of hearts

2011-11-22T16:51:00.002+08:00

人生的意义去了哪裡？

It's too late now to put out the fire...

我想念那个有自信的我...

现在的我是不是很令人讨厌？

好希望那个真正快乐的我能回来...

_l_

2011-11-16T18:34:00.000+08:00

WHAT SHIT!!!

THE MORE OPTIMISTIC THE MORE FUCK UP IT GETS.

FORGET ABOUT ME TRYING TO CHANGE EVERYTHING, I'M NO LONGER BEING OPTIMISTIC AND BACK TO BEING EMO AND PESSIMISTIC ALL OVER AGAIN. PFFFFFT!!!!

!#$@#$@#$@#$@#$@#$@# @#$@$^%^*(&^*!@#!#&^$^*(&()&%^*$%^@#$

ASDSFDHWETWRWEFTRWETRWEVFASDGJAKN XCWPWEI!!!

I almost lost it

2011-11-13T22:57:00.001+08:00

I forgot my purpose in life. I left myself rotting in my own denial, finding all ways to escape the issues and things I have to do.T_T I really hate my life right now. Escaping reality, hiding at home from the outside world. Yes even going to school is a chore and makes me feel like tearing badly. I have no motivation to move towards my target I am looking for but slacking and complaining, finding all the excuses to lay off everything I have to do.

The picture ABOVE gave me a wake up call.

I am doing it for myself and my family. I don't want to go through the 6 years of hell and the horrible look down from people. I am smart than people think I am. I can do it despite those people are in university in some foreign country. YOU CAN BE LIKE THEM. Just another 4 more week and 2 weeks of holidays till the next 8 weeks to endure. YOU CAN DO THIS!!!

So... STOP SCREWING YOUR LIFE UP LORRAINE!!! BLOODY WAKE UP.

Stormy sky

2011-11-10T17:00:00.001+08:00

I knew it, somethings are too good to be true.
I shouldn't mention it at all.
It's like a curse.
I can get back up even though life is such a bitch to me.
I am Invincible!
Yes, no one is ever going to pull me down, even my own emo-ness.
Is just another less than 1 and 1/2 years.
I CAN, I WILL, I MUST DO THIS.
Hopefully hello australia for further studies after a Diploma.

THANK GOD TOMORROW'S FRIDAYYYY! (:

ok bye.

I screwed my life.

2011-11-08T18:37:00.002+08:00

STOP PROCRASTINATING.

Damn, good bye my dear grades at the rate I am going.

Remember the good times,

2011-11-08T00:57:00.001+08:00

First and foremost...

CONGRATULATIONS TO THE BOYS (my dearest B TO THE I TO THE G, B TO THE A.N.G = BIG BANG YO!) FOR WINNING Best Worldwide Category AT THE MTV EMA!!

11.06.11 THE BOYS BACK ON STAGE AS 5 AFTER THE DIFFICULTY FACED!

I am only here for this ...................................

Have been inspired by some image congratulating the boys on their MTV GMA win. I guess this is what you can say when you are happy you will be inspired and you do the best things. (Sorry boys, I didn't do a congraulation picture of you guys based on your EMA picture.)

So yeps, I did this wallpaper that includes a definition of BEST FRIEND, but I changed it to FRIENDS! (: Hope my lovely 7! love this little something something I made to cheer on everyone who is feeling in the 7! I am also going to share the song that I supposedly want to keep for a home-made video collage, but oh well since I made this wallpaper.. I am going to share it now. (:

Okie dokie, ending here.

NIGHTS YA'LL!

back to back

2011-11-06T22:13:00.000+08:00

In life the good things comes in little packages,

2011-11-01T12:53:00.000+08:00

I have been pretty depressed lately. In fact super depressed and a total wreak, escaping from everything in the world including meeting my friends.

Since Halloween was yesterday in Singapore, 2 of my besties and I made a little small gift for them. Met them when they return back from their mini gathering. After that I walked back with them and we chat a bit on my current miserable life. Thanks for opening up another path for me. (:

Besides that I know I cried like the showers yesterday before school and mummy was home. I didn't manage to see her until later in the evening. So she gave me a hug which I needed the most. At that moment I felt so enlightened, cause that day I really needed a hug from someone. But I also know she felt sad seeing me suffer like that.

Hence an inspired note to god:

Although since birth I have been suffering so much, because of my previous karma. But despite all this suffering you gave me, you still left me a supportive and loving family and a group of amazing friends. Thank god for blessing me with these people in my life. I love all of them dearlyyyyy!!(':

Yep, So this sums up my October in school. What I can say it is sort of a great ending to my horrid month with the shower of love. Please maintain this kind of relationship with me November.

The pain,

2011-10-27T09:28:00.000+08:00

When will it all go away ....

I am just so emotional and depressed ....

I have something stuck inside of me ....

The feeling is just so uncomfortable ....

I really have horrible thoughts.

It's WORST this time.

1000% Worst.

Why hold on?

2011-10-25T22:59:00.000+08:00

I feel like an idiot, fool and all the other words that describes someone who have the intelligence of 0.

School made me feel so diminished. The modules I am doing are nothing I expected and are really horrible. I can't do the simplest thing too. I feel like going up my dreams of going to a university because of the hardship I am facing now. Some how I think I made the wrong choice. Maybe I should be doing something else. Why poly life is not smooth sailing for me??? Always so much obstacles....

Life sucks. I hate my life.

Do something about it,

2011-10-23T18:20:00.001+08:00

I have had loads of anxieties today.

And what I attended today got me thinking, if I don't change who will? I mean it's not like I can change school or anything every time I feel like crap. Endure all this shit now and after graduating, start a fresh and go to the place I wanna go and enjoy everything over there. For now I have to stop whining and DO THE CHANGE. Life will be horrible if nothing is done.

Haha. I know myself very well. If I can say this now means another day I can start swearing and cursing how horrible school can get. But well I have to take things slow and try first, else who will? So whatever it is. Everything will be fine.

I believe I can, I will be able to do it and I must do this!!!

ARGHHHHH!! WHO AM I KIDDING?!?!

I TOTALLY HAVE NO APPETITE AND THOUGHTS ARE RUNNING WILD.
Oh damn, school depression is back....

I AM SO DOOMED. ):

Don't let me down,

2011-10-22T22:13:00.003+08:00

~~HELL~~ SCHOOL STARTS ON MONDAY!!!

So clearly I am here to blog before school starts. (Damn, have not made a new wallpaper and new blog layout!)

I've been rather lazy and keep pushing back the post I was suppose to blog last week for my steamboat even. But since school is about to start I am here to unleash all the freaking anxieties and fear that will occur on the very first day of school (see even thinking about it and typing it out give me the jitters and I have the sweaty palms, @#%@$%).

School is going to be extreme when school starts. It seems like a war. Really wish all this could end. I also have to work really hard to get my grades up and yet again the fear of doing badly sucks. What are the odds of me doing well again ever since the very one semster!! And I am afraid it will repeat again and I am sure of it!!!!!!!!! My grades are totally like a roller coaster!!! And yes talking about school means..... FUCK MY LIFE. SCHOOL SUCKS. HATE SCHOOL. STRESS. DEPRESSIONNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! FUCK FUCK FUCK. See how annoyed I am with school?!?! Please god, make this up coming semester a good one and I need your blessing. REALLY NEED TO.

Anw, had a great time with my awesome buddies. Look at the pictures and you guessed it! Hahaha. I also hung out with them this week, Wednesday, for some discussion on facebook. Huiting and Cally also donated blood on the same day after the event. I also manged to eat my awesome chilli cheese fries. What a meaningful and sweet day.

Met Cally on a Thursday, accompany her for a bit of shopping spree time. Damn she made me spend on stationary which I have not splurge on it in ages. The elmo stuff is just so cute, I couldn't resist. So here I am with 3 elmo pens and 2 elmo paper clips (one of the pen and clip was bought today).

Today was also great. Woke up pretty early, as early as 7 am. Breakfast at some restaurant, dim sums! Craving it for ages! Got my hair cut, so less burden on me. Get some stationary and draw string bag to put charger stuff. I totally should wake up early go out and come back early. It totally beats waking up late and going out late.

Nough said, here are the pictures.

p/s: I'll be back once in awhile but not as often. After all, school is hell and I guess when I am feel like shit I'll be back here venting every single shit I am going through. If I have an awesome event I might blog. But see the lazy procrastinating bug in me, high doubt it.

The steamboat before school starts for the rest of the guys:

more pictures are available on my facebook.

Discussion and blood donation day:

Random stuff :

BYEEEEEE!!!

Just a thought...

2011-10-14T21:25:00.003+08:00

Back in those days (We were sec 3)...

Now, currently, 2011....

Look how time flies, we've know each other for 7 years and counting. Soon all of us will turn 20, have some other half we'll tell secrets too, and other stuff needless for me to say. I hope this friendship can go beyond the 10 years and more, taking out birthday cards, pictures and laugh at how silly and crazy our youth had been. May god bless you all and those who do not have another half yet find theirs. SO GLAD I HAVE THESE AWESOME GUYS AS BUDDIES!!! <3

Paper Heart

2011-10-14T14:28:00.004+08:00

Holiday is ending really soon...

another one week to go *sighs*

Have been trying to make the reminding days of the holiday great! What did I do ever since the last day of work????

MONDAY:

JB trip with Agnes, Cally, Her mum, Claudia, My dad. It rain early in the morning. So went over to JB with wet shoes ): Oh yea, in JB I totally walked till my legs are about to break!! We went to many many many different places and they bought so many things. OMG. Big bags and small bags. Especially Agnes, she bought loads of stuff. I just erm... can't seem to find anything that I like so yea, didn't buy much. Hahah. (: Claudia, my dad and I went back to sg first. While Agnes, Cally and her mum went back later. (:

Here are the pictures:

TUESDAY:
Another wet day, but not as wet as Monday. Went to the zoo with my girlfriends. Our free tickets became ..... ): So we paid to get it. Thank god, we paid a lesser price to get in. Pictures were mostly taken by Claudia. Another day of walking, my leg hurt like hell this time round. Idk why but I was a hungry monster like whole of that day. No kid. A picture even proved it! We had dinner after zoo and spend a pretty long time trying to figure out someone's feet in a picture. HAHA. What a day. We also reminisced over Agnes Lau's pictures of school she took in 2007 - 2009. So here is some great news gonna share some of my secondary school memories with you guys!!! First of with the Zoo pictures....

Old school days picture:

Ok me signing off~

Bye!

I like it like that.

2011-10-08T18:56:00.000+08:00

WORK IS OFFICIALLY THE END. (:

Now shall start thinking how to spend the money earned!#

I want to go and enjoy the remaining 2 weeks of holiday before ALL HELL BREAKS LOOSE all over again and prepare to go into a depressed freak (I am so sure next sem will be 1000000% a huge hurdle to surpass. Actually come to think of it... I can't wait for the next sem's holiday).

So many things to do so little time. Really.

But what is horrible is ......

I AM FREAKING SICK!!

Sore throat, cough and flu. Totally too much heaty stuff and the serious lack of water. But definitely feeling better now. Hope I can recover before Monday comes and hang out with friends at the zoo and go overseas with them and my dad.

Ok but to resting.
Toodles.

p/s: timetable is gonna be out on the 20th. OMO. It's gonna be a nightmare for sure!!

It Will Rain

2011-10-01T19:40:00.001+08:00

HELLO OCTOBER.

Please be good to me and the ones around me. It means most to me!

It's been awhile since I typed some emotional stuff, OR rather not blogging about own personal daily activities during the holidays.

My life never felt so complicated and horrible at the end of September. With people around me feeling betrayed and disappointed. You will get affected, since you are also part of it. At first I though I was able to handle it, escaping from reality, but it isn't as easy as one expects. Hate it when it can only listen and not do anything. (I SO WILL BLOODY BE IRRATIONAL AND DO THE WORLD'S CRAZIEST THINGS!) Seeing and hearing the pain that they were going through sucked big.

Anyway, this month also made me reflect on different areas of my life:

How I used to be before I'm like ...................... and YES I HATE EVERY SINGLE BIT OF THAT!!! But you have to grow up/change when the circumstances forces you to. I used to be too innocent and being not only bullied but taken advantage of!!! So no matter how much you miss that part of you it will not be there any more till the situation is no longer the same again.

Since this is the first holiday I really worked for a month, I realised how hard money come by. I happen to reflect about my future as well. I realised I do not know what I really want and afraid of the phase where students transits into the working life. It never occurred to me up till now, I need to think what I want to do. My life is going to be real hard, I have this strong six sense. My life has never been easy... I know many of you go through the same phase as me.

School is another obstacle I have to face. Yes I am doing alright, but you'll still have this fear inside: whether you can graduate, get the diploma and do well... going to a university. Sometimes school isn't all about studies but the things you do in the school. Sadly, I am not a student who excels in both studies and school external stuff. I am introvert. I WILL NEVER DENY THAT. You can't expect much from someone who suffered so much with a scar to not feel down despite all the successes. I am just too negative and emo. Really. Nothing is changing this personality of mine. ):

Lastly, I need to be something about going back to being quiet. I missed that me who shhhh and keep thoughts to herself. I guess I'm used to pouring out some things ever since I meet with my lecturer to talk about stuff.

Now September is gone and please let the sun shine in October and not let it rain.

I'm feeling superrrrrrrrrr emo nowwwwwwwwwwwww!!!

I feel like this song.

invincible

2011-09-27T20:31:00.001+08:00

Busy earning moneyyyyyy~

It has been awhile since I blogged! Tired after work, so usually I go Zzzz > Wake up dinner > 11pm+ / 12+pm Zzzz again! hahaha. It's only today I'm not feeling tried, but have to sleep early cause if not I'm gonna go all sleepy at work tomorrow!

Whee~ I'm left with a week and around 1/2 more to go before I go and partyyyyyy with friends before school start. Hahah, party is more like going out of SG and ZOO with them. Fun or what! Maybe zoo is rather immature for our age but it beats hanging out at a shopping center every time we met. We need the sunshine and sweat once in awhile!!!

Anyway, meet up with primary school buddies last week. FUN! Totally missed catching up with both of them. Had dinner and went to J.CO for dessert after that. We sat there and laughed like crazy and not forgetting stalking facebook accounts! HAHAHAHA! No worries to the people I know, yours are safe! We stalked one of my friend's friend AND yup ... they are GUYS! Teehee! (:

OMG, I totally lost my pair of slippers last week due to the hilarious session with them! Totally forgot about it until I was at Outram. I rushed back ALONE to get it back. PHEW!! I was also lucky enough to catch the bus when I reached the bus stop to travel back home!!! THANK GOD FOR EVERYTHING... else... a wasted trip and a depressing one!

So here are pictures of last week meet up and off to Zzzz for awhile!

Great Weekend

2011-09-17T11:53:00.006+08:00

NO WORK TODAY! (:

But goodbye $30 (T underscore T)

Yes, my first full weekend today and I'm heading to a flea later! I am left with 3 weeks of work (yes, I did a wrong calculation and left to suffer with another 1 more week)

Any way, got back my results yesterday. Well some where expected and some were not. Well it's acceptable I guess. (: This means a new bench mark. 自讨苦吃. They are gonna have a higher expectation. Good luck to me. Don't want to say much stuff. It still best to share it only my bestfs and family. All I can say is like what my careperson said... "Your effort = Your results"

Alrightie, I better go go go ~~ else I'll be late!

Hope I'll get some awesome stuff and and and......... taking a photo of the snail mail I got on friday and pictures from my sis's Iphone (I was using it to take some pictures) !

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No snail mail images. Lazy. Flea was alright but I just can't see anything up to my expectation.

DAMN IT. FINISHED E.U. ):

I NEED MORE RON NG. (Saddly, I still love his character in the academy series... so not gonna watch other show of his. OH YEA, I want him and 悠悠 to be togetherrrrrrrr in the show!!! They look super cute together in the show)

Lots of crooks tryin' to steal your heart

2011-09-11T21:52:00.002+08:00

ONE WEEK OF WORK HAS OFFICIALLY PASSED!!!
Another 3 more weeks to go. Shall do this countdown weekly eh?

Saturday night was girls night out!! Had a great time even though it was only with 3 babes. Talked and drank. Its my first time ever trying a cocktail and it was a good experience! The bar had an awesome ambiance!!! Thanks Claudia for the introduction! (: Shall try this again with more people, hoping to see the 7 around more often like this rather than 3 or 4 babes.

Cutting out the details cause I need to sleep soon to prepare for work tomorrow! Sucks much. Need to wake up early with a serious Monday blue and the fear of Friday's arrival. FML.

Wonder what Friday is all about?!?!

FREAKING RELEASE OF MY RESULTS!!!!!!!

OMG, PLEASE HOPE I DON'T FAIL DBIS. I DON'T WANT TO REDO TAKE IT. BUT THE CHANCES ARE HIGH, DIDN'T STUDY MUCH. DBIS IS HARD TO STUDY. AND DURING THE STUDY BREAK WAS HOLIDAY MOOD FOR ME. )':

I really need all the spiritual help need!!! Please god, bless me please. Hope I can get the grades I want for this semester! Pretty pretty please!

Alright, gonna leave my anxieties here if not I have to proclaim insomnia later and I'll be super exhausted tomorrow at work.

Do enjoy the pictures and ciaos~

Goodnight folks!

Care for some?

2011-09-07T22:44:00.000+08:00

Anyone wants some SHINee Rock?? ^__^
Sis bought this candy today!

2 days of work have passed... another 1 month minus 2 days of works left. Oh man. It gonna take forever to finish up the 1 month! ): Boohoos~ I can endure this! Can't wait for saturday to hang out with girl friends for a girls night out! (:

Alright, have to go to sleep soon,.

WORK IN DA MORNING~

To stand up straight,

2011-09-05T22:14:00.000+08:00

Wow Whee. I officially realized I lost my blogging bug, so good bye anticipated blogging.

Anyway, I'll be starting work tomorrow!!! They officially finalized with my bestfs. Oh wow, I am anticipating it. :/ I was actually looking forward to late nights and waking up late. But I guess not now. I've to do this for the money! There are loads I wanna buy! So I'll held it! I can!

Oh yea, I had an awesome lunch with my family last Saturday at Equinox. Awesome food and view! I really have no idea I used to be there when I was young. But St Regis is a little better cause the ambiance at night. LOVE IT! (:

Alright that's all. Will be back when my bug is here to tell me how to type properly.

Lastly pictures from equinox! (:

*p/s: Currently watching BIG BANG THEORY, season 4 before I wait for the next! (:

Ciao~

Brand new month

2011-09-01T20:01:00.002+08:00

HELLO SEPTEMBER! (:

& Happy Teachers' Day!

So yea .... have been out for the past few days since Tuesday. Hanging with bestfs for the last two days and haha not sick of it. (: I enjoy their company. It totally beats hanging at home and sleeping all day. Really!

When back to DAS to meet Teacher Shenmee yesterday and today we got back to BSS. Saw old friends and teachers . Somehow I miss those memories, remember the crazy times, silly times and happy times. One will never appreciate the moments they have at that time till much later. I had with my awesome ones when we were younger! (:

I think I ought to end here with a few pictures, really I don't know what is going through my mind. No kid. :/

Not in the mood

2011-08-25T21:00:00.001+08:00

Yes, I am BLOGGING when my exams is tomorrow.
Surely you must be wondering why am I doing this.....
CAUSE I'M SICK OF STUDYING FOR DBIS anddddddd IT'S KILLING ME.
Anyway didn't study much. So 1000% flunking DBIS.
Sub?? I hope not. AHHHHHHHH!!

뭘하고 ... it's my life! ):

When You're Young

2011-08-21T20:56:00.005+08:00

I am back for awhile and will be gone in awhile later.

WHEE~ School is coming to an end, can't wait to enjoy the holidays after a whole semester of hell. (well, hopefully I can enjoy this holiday... cause I'll be working to earn some money to get some clothes for myself, cause I'm online shopping too much nowadays) I want to go so many places, take a break and meet up with my besties and friends I long to hang out with.

Here are some of the places I want to go and bring my 'baby' along too.....HOWEVER..... currently.... I really really want to go Sentosa to take some awesome pictures of the beach. I want to go there badly! Trying to look for my Girlfriends to go with me though. Haha.

Before I get carried away with the break I'm looking forward too so much... I have to finish my final paper first. :/ Man, and I also conclude that this semester I don't expect to get the grades I am hoping for. Oh well I still do hope. Pray for the best.

Alright... I'm gonna end right here.

Wanna chill before the world collapse on me again.

p/s: I hope holiday I can take some amazing pictures (:

Some pictures to share...

OH YEA, HEARTSTRINGS ENDED.... HOW SAD ):

I am so gonna miss this moments, miss this guy, the couple's relationship ... ):

You've fallen for me

2011-08-07T11:44:00.001+08:00

YES! I'M HOOKED ONTO THIS KDRAMA!!! AHHHHH~
It's because of my sister. :/

YOU'VE FALLEN FOR ME!

I know I shouldn't be watching it but I need to relax you know!!!

I love the chemistry between this two couple. They make me feel like falling in love! They made me miss how I felt while falling in love. One of them made my fall in love with the cast. JONGHWA! Love his smile in this drama. Awww~ never knew he could look so cute! Loving the song You've fallen for me! Idk what's with the song but it makes me go all awwww~ ^_^

Besides the drama ... best yet, I've fallen ill. arghhhhhh! :/

Such a wrong timing. This time I am not gonna do self medication or spam Panadol that doesn't even work, but rather take the medication my mum got from the doctor last week.

SCREEN SHOTS:

Ok! Signing off with just some of the picture and screenshots! (:

Optimism doesn't help

2011-07-25T07:31:00.004+08:00

I GIVE UP.

Optimism does wonders?!

NOT FOR ME IN ANY CASE.

Be it school projects or my 1/2 screwed up life. That's it. Finished.

You all should be happy.

Later is gonna suck so darn bad!!!

Stupid people gives up, ya I am one. _l_

Keep it that way,

2011-07-22T09:27:00.000+08:00

HI THERE FOLKS.

Here to blog about my snail mail. Went to collect the reg. mail just now. No one was home when the postman delivered my mail. ): I made a total who-ha too. Added an extra 'th' behind my street number. Totally afraid that my mail will be lost. Lucky to make the call to singpost yesterday. PHEW! I have not meet with lost mails in ages. I HOPE THIS WILL BE THE LAST AGAIN. PRAYS HARD.

PICTURES:

GOODBYE!

*p/s this post was supposed to be posted on the 20th of july. Really busy and tired so ended up typing it 1/2 way. -__-

Life is tough but....

2011-07-21T08:29:00.001+08:00

FOR THE NEXT FEW WEEKS I WILL BE COMPLETING PROJECTS AND STUDYING FOR BNu.

LIFE IS REALLY STARTING TO GET TOUGH.

I FEEL LIKE GIVING UP... BUT SO MANY THINGS OUT THERE ARE STOPPING ME.

ALL THE MORE I'LL FIGHT THIS BATTLE AND WIN.

JUST KEEP CLAIM AND DO MY BEST.

DON'T HAVE TO RUSH. TAKE THE TIME AND I'LL BE ABLE TO DO IT FOR SURE.

LIFE IS LIKE THAT.

I CAN DO IT (HOPEFULLY, PRAY HARD I CAN)

WHEN LIFE GETS TOUGH, TOUGH WILL KEEP RUNNING NO MATTER WHAT!

* I'm a little more optimistic now, but at times still depressed. I'm able to handle it! I've proven it. YES I CAN!

GOODBYE. SEE YOU IN 5 WEEKS TIME FOR A FULL TIME BLOG MAKE OVER (:

We speak differently,

2011-07-17T13:56:00.002+08:00

Hi there!

Here to blog about materialistic stuff again. :P Hahaha, partly here to distress too! Saturday is awesome at a certain hour. Went to catch HP7 pt. 2 early in the morning with my family, had a great lunch and went back home. I miss watching movies with them really often like what we did in the past. Went back home at 2pm and head out again at 7+ to raffle's city to get my Birkenstock. (:

Had BK for dinner and wait for my sis. She went to MBS to stalk GD&TOP (TOP was no where to be seen ): ) LUCKY OR WHAT?! HER FRIEND STALKED GD ALL THE WAY TO EAST COAST (since the people there were very little and he was there for dinner) HER FRIEND GOT A HAND SHAKE WITH GD. LIKE WAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH~~ Hahaha, the funny thing is that the friend has a bad BO. LMAO~ But she's mad lucky. Always have the chance to talk to artist. ARGH, THE WORLD IS SO UNFAIRRRRRRR!! :/

Snail mail is arriving tomorrow. WHEEE~

Okie dokie, I'm ending here. (: Goodbye~

SEE SEE SEE, MY SIS TOOK GD'S SIDE VIEW!!! (&& HIS SMILING ^^)

MY NEW PAIR OF BIRKENSTOCK, ICE PEARL OPAL. I was totally torn between what to get. The black one or this pair.

Who says we need to have a lot of friends?

2011-07-09T23:11:00.026+08:00

I was really inspired to type this. I hope when 18th ends, everything will end in a great manner and of course when I turn 19th things will get better. 18 years I've been living. 6 years of hell in primary school. 5 years of awesome-ness with true friends and now in my poly face: although I do not have really close friends there but I do feel the care and concern from friends at times. Thanks for that.

* the song does not belongs to me, it belongs to GLEE!

I love to thank my awesome 6 bfriends. The V-CARD, the bbq, the cake and the presents. We need not have a big bunch of friends, but a few will do good. Cause having a few that really cares and trust is the best you can ever have. SO THANKS SO MUCH GUYS! (: The underwear is really S.H.O.C.K.I.N.G! But for the fun of it and memorable birthday too. HAHAHA.

HERE IS WHAT THEY GAVE ME:

Every thing that happened is a way to increase my wisdom, learn from my mistakes and helping me grow. I know, we always turn a year older. But this year is different, soon I'll be in a face I can't whine and make really serious decisions. Even if I don't want to, I have to grow up.

Well, I hope I can continue to achieving and striving. I have many people to do them proud. I believe I can and I will be able to do it this year. I also hope the wishes I make for this birthday will ALL come true.

Thanks for everything this year. (:

* Have not chosen a present from my parents this year. So Birkenstock or perfume?

SNAIL MAILLLLLLLL!

2011-07-05T00:09:00.000+08:00

WHEE~ SNAIL MAIL TIME!

Got my top from static again. I finally decided to get it after maybe a week of contemplation. I love this top like mad. Really love. After the collection was open, lucky enough, BO. Asked my mummy and since I have no interest in the new collection, I went back to getting this piece. Some thing different from the tops I wear. Woohoo~ mad happy.

My post for today is really simple, just talking about my snail mail. Next post will be upcoming on sat and sun? I guess I'll abandon the blog till the VACATION, using too much social network recently. Need.To.Kick.It.Bad. Stopping online shopping as well.

Okie dokies, me signing off. Sleepy Sleep. Zzzz

WANTS!

2011-07-04T00:07:00.000+08:00

I decided to post this due to CALLY, well she asked me "what do you want for your birthday this year?"

Well, I'm gonna list a few (haha, but I only have a few)... I was embarrassed to tell her, so here it is:

more tops/bottoms blah blah blah (clothes)
a nice bag (cally knows)
camera bag (too ex, so yea...)
a pair of nice flats
POLAROID CAMERA! (too ex, so yea...)
a nice card
a great day
you guys know me, so think of more stuff that I can make use of (:

So yeps, that's it. (:

Can't wait to know what is up their sleeves.

Goodbye June.

2011-06-30T22:00:00.000+08:00

THE END OF THE MONTH. WOOHOO. NOT. ACTUALLY.

So this means my birthday will be in 9 days time which actually suck. Cause I'm growing older need to do quite a bit of growing up. School also make me not anticipate my birthday. Anw birthdays now are like ... "Oh ok, lets eat something scrumptious!" "Ok, cut cake." -End of birthday- So yea, nothing to look forward to.

On the side note, lookie lookie!!! My new specs. I used to go really near my computer screen when I'm using the com. But with this I need not. So in fact it's saving me from straining my eyes. Will try my best to take really really good care of my specs this time round.

Here's me with my new specs:

SIGH! I need a long sleep. Have not been getting enough rest lately ): School is the one that is having this effect on me. Can't wait for the holidays AND the year end. Wanna go overseas desperately, well I hope I can go.

Here's 2 random picture of the elmo my bfriends gave me a few years back. I abandon it. But decided to capture a picture of it using my 'baby'. Heheh!

Ok, gonna end here and watch channel u! Ciao~

Worst way to start the new month,

2011-06-29T23:12:00.000+08:00

_l_ Look at this symbol.
Everything that happened today must be shown _l_!!!

Worst day of my life ever, so much happened. In total there like 5 incidences. _l_ ARGH!
I really shouldn't talk so much even if it's a joke. Whatever even if it's my fault, I hate the way you just keep barging in and being so nagging. Hate your attitude too.

ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHH!! asdasdasgfg dfg s!!

The only happy thing is to wait for my upcoming snail mail. (:
I can't wait. I just ordered it today. They'll be mailing out on Friday.
I finally decided to ordered it after contemplating like crazy. :X

Ok bye. Abrupt ending cause I just wanna flare.

SCHOOL'S BACK

2011-06-26T23:53:00.005+08:00

!@##$%^$%ASDASDER!

Yes, school is starting tomorrow -_-lll which means more hell days are to come. Now I have this undying splitting headache that occurs as and when it likes. So there I went today get my eyes, checked to see if my headache was related to the changes of my eyesight degree. AND GUESS WHAT?! My Astigmatism has INCREASED! Horrible much! Too much computer -_-lll so a reason to use the computer less?? HAHAHAH.

I choose 2 of these brands. (Design of the glasses are not the ones found at the optician.) The first one I liked the side but the lens size is rather small and the colour don't suit me. So going back to the basics, taking a black frame of the other brand and you'll get to see images of it when I collect them either on Wednesday or Thursday. Excited to get them! But -_-lll sucks to know my degree increased. WT__!

So yea, toodles. Going to sleep soon and off to school with MONDAY BLUES. :/

So much to handle

2011-06-24T19:05:00.000+08:00

HEY FOLKS, ME YA, BLOGGING YA. teehees. (nigahiga influence ^^ )

MY SNAIL MAIL ARRIVED!! woohoo~ happy like mad despite being rather annoyed with school stuff.
Considering buying more pieces from this blogshop, there is one on my mind currently but BO. I don't know if I should purchase, cause there are few more snail mails to come which isn't coming that soon and I have been spending quite a lot lately. ): But my mummy said go ahead and purchase though. X: AHH, idk.

School's back in another few more days time. ARGH. HATE. DETEST. ANNOYED. But in order to reach my goals, my dreams, I've to do this for myself. So I'm enduring it till I am able to go to the U. Anyway I'm left with around 1 and 3/4 of a year to go. HAHA.

So ya, basically that's it. Waiting for vacation, which is 8 weeks + 1 week exam week(?) later. WANNA MODIFY MY BLOG LAYOUT + BLOG MORE + TAKE MORE PICTURES, (:

Photoshop editing picture.. FAILED. Splitting headache that's why.

hahaha, I wanted to take picture of the items so just randomly grabbed a pair of shorts. Didn't match it.

First purchase and it was their anniversary, so got this free gift. THANKS STATIC!!! AWESOME GOODS!

PLAYING WITH PHOTOSHOP:

Somethings are way more than it seems,

2011-06-13T01:29:00.001+08:00

I've no idea what came over me. I'm really inspired to write this post. Sometimes things just come and you know, you just have to express it. I know I have not been blogging about emotional stuff (which I am trying to keep away). Shit always happen when I use CERTAIN internet stuff. You get it right? So here I am feeling like SHIT. :/

It would be cool if someone could leave a comment answering this questions:

Am I being too on the guard till I lost who I really am?
Am I a different person?
Antisocial?
Insecurities?

I guess somethings/situations in life can turn someone sweet to someone so bitter.

I'll use this holiday to do some soul searching. I'd love to be someone who is able to stand up like Stanley (some movie I watched over the weekend) and ignore everything even whatever they do to you. I am still childish at times, why? I always wish I am still a kid. A baby still. Life is easier. I've this strong growing intention to get rid of my current image - I want to be someone who looks like the way I think. No longer wanna be a softy and antisocial (oh it's hard to get rid). I want to change so many things. I want to try being a brand new person... I really do.

나의 달콤한 추억, her 19th.

2011-06-08T23:25:00.003+08:00

Finally! A decent the 7 meeting. It has been ages. Well, a month or so? :P

HAPPY BIRTHDAY GIRLFRIENDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD!! XOXOs

So met up with the 7, my world most awesome clique that I hope that can last longggggg, for steamboat just now. In case if you were wonder why steamboat, practical and some of us love steamboat. So yea, hang with a steamboat pot in front of us. After that for dessert, FROZEN YOGURT!!! YUMMMMMMMYS!! And back home we all when. So basically this all I have to say.

If you were wondering why the colour of the picture is different, I'm exploring something in my Photoshop. (even though I use it for school work, there are still things I do not use. So yea.)

Okie dokie, picture time. Enjoy. Ciao folks, ciaooooooo~

SCHOOLS OUT!

2011-06-08T01:07:00.000+08:00

HOLIDAY'S IN YOZXZX!!!

But have loads to do this holiday. PROJECTS PROJECTS PROJECTS! ): NO LIFE!!!

Oh well, shall take my sweet time and do it AND of course hang with my awesome best friends. So yea, met them for dinner just now. Awesome time spamming Claudia's Whats App with photos from Nurrsy's phone. Teehee! I.need.the.iPhone.to.come.out.soon! Hahaha!

Awhile later is NES'S BIRTHDAY!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY GIRLFRIEND! Hope you have an amazing one this year! xoxos!

Okie dokie, ending here and off to lala land soon.

ON NOM NOM NOMS

2011-05-22T21:36:00.001+08:00

I'm trying my best but there is so much distractions, so why not blog some pictures which I edited. Oh yea, got my lovely pair of shorts!!! FTW!!! I wish I can get another pair of distress shorts and another HIGH WAIST! I'm waiting for my snail mails to arrive! Can't wait to upload the pictures too!! Awesome loot I tell ya! TEEHEE.

Enough said pictures times.

Alright, byezx! I try my best to upload my pictures every now and then.
p/s: awesome cupcake pictures eh? IT'S NOT TAKEN WITH MY DSLR BUT DIGI. CAM!

Materalistic Belonging

2011-05-20T16:20:00.002+08:00

Damn, I've not been blogging for ages! So a short one today. :D

Well, basically I'm here trying to blog about my longggggggggggggg WANTED TP TEE. Yes, since year 1 which I didn't get one cause it didn't catch my eyes!! Finally went to got the tee on Wednesday with classmates!!!

So got it and cam whore via my web cam for awhile on Thursday. :P
TODAY IS MY MUMMY'S BIRTHDAY!! HAP HAP HAP HAP HAP HAPPPPPPPPP HAPPYYYYYYYYYYYYY BIRTHDAYYYYYYYYYY!! Canelé for us! I miss having Canelé macaroon which are the best I ate so far. Tried macaroons from different places and they were mostly like .... hmmm.... ok..................... >< eeks!

Sigh!! I'm slacking like mad crazy nowadays. Most importantly I have to enjoy my current work and then I will be able to excel. I'm so not chasing people's pase anymore.

Basically that's it! End of my post. Bye!

ME & MY MATERALIST BELONGING. YES WITH THIS I FEEL MORE LIKE A TP STUDENT. HA.

MY MACAROON CRAVINGS (a tick!)

The missing pieces,

2011-05-10T23:12:00.001+08:00

I MISS MY THE 7 CLANGGGGGG !!

I want to hang out with them SOOOOOO BADLY!!! ):
I want to go kelong with them!!!
I want watch movie with them!!!
AHHHH, I'm so caught up with work that my life SUCK CORK! :/

Received a good news today, buttttttt....... not really happy cause this whole morning was a disaster.

1) Cabbed to school
2) Thought I lost my thumb drive. FML, if I ever did!
3) Didn't pay attention in class
4 and loads more rubbish to spoil one's day.

Ending randomly, GOODNIGHT!

Split, Torn, Broken

2011-05-08T19:25:00.000+08:00

Horoscopes are sick. Really sick. Why??

1) You were like ^^ and after reading the horoscope and after know this month is )':
2) MOST of the time it's CORRECT
3) Makes you demoralised
4) Makes you take things for granted
5) Makes you EMOTIONAL

But people still can't get their hands off one of those horoscope books.

One of them is me. Me. Me. Me. ):

I'm so freaking depressed today after doing CMSK. Holly mama, it's a killer. I don't even know what that hack I'm doing. Partly is because I'm recovering from my annoying long time no see buddy the FLU BUG. People are mugging so major big time causing me to freak like bad. Thing are like scary too this semester. So this is just amazing. :/ Just as I got my confidence level up this week due to much counselling and some good news, NOW it has officially crashed to the ground with these problem.

Maybe I skipped for 4 days straight, so I feel kinda insecure. Partly CMSK is the problem too. I have a problem with trying to run away when I meet with a problem! But whatever it is I hope things will turn out fine. Really fine. I have big ambitions to fulfill! ):

Please I need to get my feet down FIRMLY on the ground all over again.

I don't want to cry and disappoint my parents. I really don't.

HELL IS STILL HELL

2011-04-25T23:32:00.000+08:00

I should be getting used to life in school right?????

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!! YOU'RE WRONG.

I'm back to my 1.1emotional self! I seriously, do not know how to endure the 17 more weeks before the next 1 month break!!! School work is MAD insane, just even when I thought... oh it should be alright. FML. NOW ALL IN MY HEAD IS WT_ IS THIS. HOW THE HECK DO I DO THIS. I HATE CHANGES. DAMN, I've to endure 2 months before a short 2 weeks break. Oh dear, please come ASAP!!!! ):

Now I shall go back to my corner and weep in dispare.

Idk how to survive 2.2!! It's the first day and it's A NIGHTMARE!

Officially A Jr. Tomorrow

2011-04-24T20:34:00.001+08:00

Today's the last day of MY HOLIDAYS *weeps*. Sucks. Pretty Much.

Why ??????? After school reopens = HORRIFYING LIFE and LOADS OF STRESS!!

To end my holiday, I shall blog about the things I did and keep in here as a part of my memory. Good idea? I also did an armature picture on some of the outing pictures I look with my best buds when we were out + night jog.

For me this holiday was rather useful. I did loads of stuff. From house work to going to places I wanna go. HERE, shall list them:

mop the floor in my house
vaccum the floor in my house
packed my bedside table
packed the books in my room
packed my cupboard
packed my closet and the clothes rack in my room
night jogging once a week/twice a week
USS
Marina Barrage
Mind Cafe
Shopping (ahh, TOPSHOP)
TON
Movie Screening
Work at an event
etc.....

I enjoyed my holiday with those gatherings, outings, interviews, packing, cleaning and of course my home time with the english dramas and movies. I can't wait for the next holiday to enjoy all the things once again. This up coming semster, I really have to change all that I've did last semster!! I hope things will be alright in the upcoming semster. It's gonna get pretty tough, since 1.2 is HORRIFYING. I believe I will be able to tackle everything!! (:

Alright, have to pack my stuff and prepare for school tomorrow.

Hope to blog soon too.

Toodles!

I My Me Mine,

2011-04-23T20:32:00.001+08:00

AHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!

LOOK AT THE PICTURES!!!

I've finally totally gotten my BIG BANG SE Album!!! (:

Add on to the amazing news is that I've gotten TOP's card which is rightfully my sis ones. Hopefully she can't trade it! Hope her friends doesn't get TAEYANG!! PLEASE!!

Today's awesome just awesome, because my TOMS order has been confirmed & of course BIGBANG's album as well! Now I'm waiting for it to arrive in around 3 weeks times ( ahhh, longgggg ): ) I've sometime else on my list, BIRKENSTOCK!! Wanna get one so that I can share with my mummy. However, I've spend so much this month so maybe I'll wait till I've enough real soon. I also wanna get a few TOPSHOP pieces, so have to keep Birkenstock on my list for awhile. ):

Alright, enough of my wants.

Gonna watch tele now. BYE.

Tragedy

2011-04-22T01:44:00.001+08:00

This isn't my first or second, or third.

BUT MY 26892744 TIME SAYING....

When school starts, I'm gonna face a serious tragedy.

This time, Idk what I'm up for. Not forgetting I have this STRONG feeling growing inside of me: I'm gonna end up doing the same thing as I did in 1.1!!

I'm starting to get REALLYYYYYYYY worried about what I've to face now. Especially after what I saw. FML.BIG.TIME.

Heart to Heart,

2011-04-19T23:44:00.004+08:00

(Credits to ashleymackenroe)

MY.CURRENT.OBSESSION = TOMS.
(I know it was popular for quite sometime, but I want it because it looks really comfy)

So I'm gonna try getting my hands on one pair of TOMS shoes, a classic one. I actually like the one in the picture too!!! Tomorrow gonna try my luck at Pedder Red. Check them out and try them, see if it looks alright on me. I really hope it looks nice on me, cause I REALLY WANT A PAIR OF THESE!

Since Korean Music Wave 2011 has disclosed their cost for their tickets, I really might be giving up on the concert and more determind to get my hands on the shoes. LOOK. What's the point of buying the tickets and see ants. 300SGD for the ticket? YOU MAD? Totally not worth, despite me owning a DSLR now. The shoes are also sold for a good cause. ONE FOR ONE.

Now I hope it will look alright and won't cost so much so I can really get my hands on the shoe. *prays hard* !!

After purchasing this, I need a bag. I've been looking for a new bag too, BACKPACK, for school. I want to change my current one. Got holes in them. ):

AHHHH, SCHOOL IS GONNA OPEN SOON. NEXT WEEK. AHHH!!

It's annual,

2011-04-16T20:51:00.004+08:00

FINALLY, I GOT TO MEET UP WITH MY AWESOME FOLKS (The 7! + Chooi Tene) BEFORE SCHOOL HOLIDAYS COME TO AN END. This is also sort of a "welcome home, Claudia" celebration too since we have not seen her for a MONTH! A WHOLE MONTH!!!

As usual, they headed to my house for a steamboat. Something was different this time round. We had movie screening!! Plug in laptop and play on TV kind though. HAHA. Not all were interested in the movies though, 3 of them were *ahem* gambling. :P

Of all things I enjoyed most were the spamming of pictures! HAHA, some people went mad. MAD. No kid. It felt more fun with this craziness. Somehow, I felt this was different. Really different. I don't know what I felt, but sometimes my heart just feel weird. :X Whatever it is, everyone had their fair share of joy today yea?

I don't expect things to remain the same, somehow things will DEFINITELY change as time pass. Well at lease we'd make the effort to meet up, gather together and hang. Better then nothing. I'm just glad at least I have this bunch of people I really can be myself around them. (:

More pictures on FB by the way. (:

Toodles.

*ps: blogging a lot recently, but I'll be cutting down once school start. Lazy is one of the excuses. :P I might have a post before school start. See how life goes. (:

I hate this love song,

2011-04-15T21:41:00.001+08:00

HERE'S SOMETHING I DID OVER A LONG PERIOD OF TIME DUE TO PROCRASTINATION.(rather long to me, cause I take a day to finish up a wallpaper)

I did the first version, and it kinda sucked. I don't know what came to me today and I totally was able to finish it within awhile and get this outcome! (:

I love how it turned out. I love the bubble, it was not planned. The heart was all sudden, cause I can't see the heart brush. HAHAHA!!

Alright, I wanna watch my movie. So many to watch. (:

Blowing good?

2011-04-15T11:54:00.001+08:00

I won't be lazy no more!

See the 2 pictures above? The first: not blown dry The second: blown dry.

See the difference (i know the black shirt one can't really be seen but at least you can see how it curls to the left in the picture) See my hair is annoying. That's why now I've got a hair dryer to blow dry my hair to get the nice after cut shape!! HAVE TO NO CHOICE. If not I look like crap with my current hair. It's almost a week with this hair and I only love my FRINGE!! :X

Alright, I'm so gonna be late!! Meeting claudia soon for lunch!! YUM!! :D

Fresh??

2011-04-11T23:16:00.001+08:00

TODAY'S INSANE. SERIOUSLY INSANE.

LOOK.

YES, I got my hair snip snip snip into the bin. I wanted something else, but it is really hard to maintain. Even worst than this. This current hair style needs to be blown dry though. SIGH. But as a lazy person, I won't blow dry my hair! hehehe! BUT I HAVE TO, CAUSE IT WILL LOOK LIKE CRAP! :/

I kinda hate this hairstyle cause it's so GIRLYYYYYYYYY. I guess I need time. I'm the kind of girl who doesn't like girl girl hairstyles. In fact I prefer the emo/punk hairstyle or those middle length layered hairstyle. SIGH. Oh well, hack. At least I got a heavy load off my sholderrrrrrrrrrrr! So what do you think??????

This is my new pencil box. MAN, have been looking for one for the longest hour. Now I finally gotten what I wanted. Whee, motivation. xD !! I love the owls, so first time I saw it I was: "YES, FINALLY!! TOTALLY WHAT I AM LOOKING FOR!!" And for my nail colour, it is one of the nail lacquer Cally purchased for me. I've not really applied it properly, cause I can't do the right handdddddd!

Alright, enough of my unless crappy blogging today which makes no sense because of the not in the mood to blog but want to blog feeling. HAHA. Gonna eat my .......

N O W!! B Y E!!

From boys to men,

2011-04-10T20:07:00.002+08:00

FIRST PERFORMANCE (on inkigayo) OF THEIR SPECIAL ALBUM!! (:

Update more later- GONNA GO RUNNING WITH NURSSY, maybe doing a picture for the boys later to be uploaded here. Tomorrow have to get started with Cally's wallpaper too!

Love song,

2011-04-08T22:23:00.001+08:00

Did the picture above for Agnes's Google chrome theme. It's really simple, but I stared at it for the LONGEST TIME!!! I guess at times when ideas do not flow, it won't. I'm not totally in love with this piece of work but the pictures are cute! My mum said this looks happy compared to mine. ><

Screen shot of nes google chrome theme:

HA HA, recently have been doing so much BIGBANG. Gonna create a wallpaper for Cally too. Need to relax and get into the flow, if not calling for another piece of work I don't really love and feeling guilty toward my babes. ):

Alright, going to do my nails! :D Got 2 new bottles of OPI Nail Lacquer, Cally helped me purchased it!

Baby don't cry

2011-04-08T09:55:00.001+08:00

I'm hooked on using the new BIGBANG SE ALBUM pictures to create such pictures! Here's a little quote from the lyrics. It's not very meaningful though but I believe BIGBANG wants us to remember their songs forever.

#stupidlovesong,

2011-04-07T22:50:00.001+08:00

Do I have to say more?

Hehe! (:

5 years, AND an another 5 more

2011-04-07T13:02:00.003+08:00

BIGBANG SIGNS A CONTRACT TO BE IN YG FOR ANOTHER 5 YEARRRRRRRRS!

Just nice I wanted to create a google chrome big bang theme. The picture above is actually the background for the theme, but since they renew their contract for another 5 year, THIS IS FOR THE BOYSSSSSSSSS! (:

I took a few hours to finish my theme. It's not perfect as it's my first time doing a theme for chrome. I think I'm gonna officially switch to google chrome. So here's a few screen shot of the amateur google chrome theme I made:

Still trying to solve some problems though.

Have to go to school laterrrrrrrrr!! So ending here. Ciao~

You’re haunted by yesterday and still sore from the fall,

2011-04-05T22:41:00.001+08:00

It's me all over again.
I've been blogging quite alot recently. I just love how my post end up at the on of the day on my layout. Any way, the picture above is something I did due to my undying love from T.O.P's rap in cafe. It's not great, but something simple. I want to do a better piece with a new quote from "Stupid Liar" or "Love Song". This is how much I love my BIGBANG boys!
I think I'm keeping it short today.

The briefing turn out really well. REALLY. WELL. :/ It's still not my thing being alone. I still love abit of company. Not much, but a few and I'd feel better. I guess there's always a first. Now I'm freaked for the 13th (THANK GOD, it's only a day!!) Doing badge check at MBS in formal. T___T No problems faced pleaseeeeeee~ Whatever! Don't want to get insomina with this in my head! Ending this topic.
YAYS, in an hour plus or so it's D-DAY 2! Excited for the release of the album, than comeback stage and the mv release! :D

Alright, I'm signing off now. Gonna find some movies to take my mind off today. It just scares me!

Tata!

A woman is leaving, though a guy is singing for her…

2011-04-05T00:58:00.003+08:00

3 MORE DAYS TO D-DAY!

D-DAY OF THE RELEASE OF BIG BANG's SPECIAL ALBUM!

Hi there folks,

here I am blogging at wee hours of the night (inspiration gain from the day? lol?) as usual. I'm feeling 2 kinds of emotions now: FREAKED & EXCITED!

Freaked: Going to go for the briefing all alone tomorrow for this event coming soon. Well, it's something I've never did in my life before, so yea, kinda freaking big time about tomorrow and hesitant. I'm introvert and all you see. But this is a good experience, trying to break away from my comfort zone. So ya, hoping every thing's gonna work out fine. WISH ME LUCK!

Excited: I was kinda worried about it at first, but now all is good! I thought I had some problem with my order, but not it's alright! I just received my email for the payment! HELL YEAH! I know worried over a ridiculous order for BIG BANG's album to some, but it's my wish to get a BIG BANG album alright! It's so exciting to open one of their album listen to their voices. HAHAH, I know I'm one heck of a fan, but I believe VIPs all feel the same way... excited about their album! I think it's a blessing in disguise. I almost got their 4th mini album but hesitated cause the songs are so little. I'm glad I did stop that decision. I felt kinda guilty for not ordering an album to support them to reach the top in the charts. Now I have all the reasons in the world to feel like a good VIP. xD Crazy FAN GIRL MUCH? :P

I just love blogging, since I don't really have anyone to pour out on such stuff and mixed emotions. (Stuff that aren't really important) Any way, learnt a lot from a show. I think rather of secrets pulling people closer, people are torn apart. Certain things are best kept to ourselves.

Alright then, that's all for tonight. Shall blog about me conquering my fears going to some place alone I'd die if I knew no one. Having an early one tonight after finishing episode 19 of "Pretty Little Liars".

Goodbye ^___^

Life from another side of the universe ,

2011-04-04T04:13:00.001+08:00

21 MORE DAYS BEFORE SCHOOL START.

I'm blogging all my mixed emotions here. It's like the anxiety doesn't fade. Well basically I've this problem all my life (poly life) - school holidays left 20 days/less than a month I scream insomnia, worried and spell horrifying thoughts in my head. I'm not happy with such anxiety of mine. See, with THIS it hinders loads of stuff - school and living my life to the fullest.

Sometimes I feel so stuffed up. I'm like running a long race that I don't know what I am running for. If not I'm just running too fast getting all exhausted. I really could use a little SG get away or a little air breather in some resort or stress free location. I just got too much on my plate to handle. Maybe I need to find a motivation for myself again. (Perhaps she's right, having a BF is a real good motivation. Oh yeah, PLEASE it's hard to come by. No kid. :/ )

Basically that's it. LIFE. Fast phased. No time. Anxieties. Unpredicted situations. Oh yeah, MAYBE, partially worried about work. Totally working alone on - FOREVERALONE. T_T So yea, all cramped up inside made me feel like blogging.

OK, I better get some sleep.. LATE.. & it's also because my head is kinda killing me!
( p/s: Pretty Little Liar is nice. How I love American TV series :D )

NIGHTS~

Stupid Liar

2011-04-02T20:02:00.005+08:00

It's has been a long time since I blogged!

Finally changed my layout for my blog (stuck to the same layout for a year +). Anw, I'm gonna try blogging more often now since I've a new layout! (OH, I LOVE MY BANNER!!) Ok, blog later! Gonna go running with nurssy soon!! (:

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Met up with the girl above on thursday. Went to MIND Cafe @ Tamp. Safra. Had fun with her and ken's friends. Really had fun playing over there. Head to J8 aftermath and accompany her to wait for her friend to go for her meeting for some competition.

Since I have nothing to blog I'll blog another day!

p/s: Sigh, GOING TO GO FOR QING MING TOMORROW. FOREST/JUNGLE/WHATEVER IT IS. ): I don't mind going bishan to see my grandma, but going to the forest is yucky! && EARLY MORNING SUCKS! ):

I wish I could get everything right,

2011-03-16T00:28:00.000+08:00

OOVOO-ed with my besties just now! Fun one! Since Claudia is in China now and we can only see her in like 5 weeks time, so we oovoo-ed. Sad huh? Miss her being around to hang with us. (rather, MORE THE MERRIER!) It ok, at least she will be back unlike SANDYYYYYYYYYYYY LIMMMMMMMMMMMMM! Sometimes I wanna hang with her but she's like in AUSSIE. ):

I decided to blog now since I'm feeling kinda down somehow. I feel like a part of my is break apart. Too much things to worry about, so much pain I'm feeling. Trying to ignore it all. After all at time ignorance is a bilss ain't it?

Sigh, I guess I always feel anxities when it comes nearer to my result release date. I don't feel so much during secondary school, but not I feel more pain when I don't do well .. more butterflies too. I need this so badly! I want to see myself shine! I'm damn worried about this thursday which I totally believe I can't see myself shine and in fact I believe my friends will be wayyyyyyyy better than me. I've been too slacky and took loads of things for granted. So if my results sucks I am to blame. Somehow a little part of me is still hoping wishing things will be as awesome as the semster I had in 1.1 but now.... who am I kidding.... everything just sucks.

I shall embrace the failure, the sub paper and the lousy gpa coming my way.

But is god still willing to help me out? Show me a bit more mircle? I really want to have good results but sometimes I'm just too burnt out. I need the next results to be great to let me know I am fighting a winning battle but not a losing one. I really do hope everything is alright.

WHATEVER IT IS I HAVE TO FACE MY NIGHTMARE THIS THURSDAY. I REALLY DO HOPE EVERYTHING IS ALRIGHT. EVERYTHING IS FINE. ): WHO AM I KIDDING?! I WILL FLUNK MODULES AND I DIDN'T PUT IN ENOUGH EFFORT.

ENOUGH SAID. I SHALL STOP BEFORE I GET SERIOUS INSOMINA AND TOMORROW I STILL HAVE TO GO BACK TO SCHOOL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Don't go home,

2011-03-07T13:37:00.000+08:00

It's been ages since I talked about my "BFs", yeps all VIP's heart trob.

I've been listening to a lot of BIGBANG, their mini album and GD&TOP DON'T GO HOME. Don't go home (out for quite sometime now) is just freaking sweet! Every time I listen to that song I think about TOP in the MV at BIGSHOW. OMG, I officially lost this time. Even my heart just flutters at TOP images I also research on. Ahhhhhhhhhhh~

I have to re-draw my FAN & IDOL line once more. The other time TOP made me so memserised was HARU HARU. Now DON'T GO HOME has made me a crazy fan girl again. Ok, enough spazzing!

I'm like super bored. So blogging it out here. Later I have to go to school (DAMN, I DON'T WANT TO) to get my results from CMSK. Predictions: C is a for sure! CMSK, ANP AND MOS isn't my thing. Anw, better start preparing and I have to do abit of house work before I leave. BYE!

Tonight

2011-03-05T00:39:00.000+08:00

Hey folks, ( well to who ever that even reads my blog now which is so dead)

I've not been blogging for awhile now. School takes up so much time that blogging and social media tools are totally even such a hassle and causing much hindrance to my school projects. Sigh, school sucks big. Anw, it's the school holiday now. So ignoring everything that is related to school NOWWWWWWWWWWWW! (even though thinking about how sucky my sem 1.2 results will be. FML.)

Well, I'm here cause I'm blogging about the awesome time with my babes in the 7 (dear oh couple, where are you gonna hang with us again??) We have doing different things recently - PICNIC, MARCHE AND USS. I decided to take risk, let my adrenaline rush within me. So, I mastered my courage to take the ROLLER COASTER! Awesome ride! Fun time before claudia goes to CHINA. Cutting the story short. PICTURESSSSSSSSSSSS TIMEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!! (Most of the pictures are available on fb though)

Trying to break through

2011-02-01T11:54:00.001+08:00

I'm back to the days where school was hell for me once again.

How much I HATE LIFE.
There is only so much I can handle on my plate, but I seem to be over eating.
I need another 2 weeks of holidays to finish up all projects.... ):

I am so not looking forward to this Chinese New Year, worst one yet.
How do you survive in POLY?
Sometime I wish I was doing something else and not this...
SERIOUSLY.... HATING MY LIFE TO BITS.

Expected grades for sem 1.2: GPA 2.7!!
Expecting the worst, really no more over confidence only more sobbing this holiday!

I DON'T KNOW WHAT I AM EVEN DOING!!
HOW DO I FREAKING DO WELL?!?!?
ALL THE GUILT, ALL THE SORROW AND ANXIETY.

Emotional

2011-01-08T01:04:00.003+08:00

I'm feeling emotional (looking through at facebook pictures)

I miss people who were truly caring towards me.
I always start the year missing the past, WHY?! ):

School starts TOMORROW

2011-01-03T00:11:00.000+08:00

Hell yes I hate school & I don't want to go to school tomorrow. I'm gonna keep my cool and continue typing....

!@$$#&^%&*^&*(^& ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! FUCK SCHOOL! FUCK EVERYTHING!! I HATE MY LIFEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE! I CANNOT KEEP MY COOL, CAUSE I HATE IT SO MUCH! FUCK IT X 10000000!! I HATE GOING TO SCHOOL!! CAN'T WAIT FOR THE HOLIDAYS! OK BYE!

A brand new year

2011-01-01T00:22:00.001+08:00

Dear 2011,

Pretty pretty please be awesome this year with no more tragedy, instead happiness and more may all my wishes in 2010 come true! I hope you'll go smoothly. 2010 is more than enough. I have waited to see you for a long time, please don't let me down!

Yours Sincerly, RAINE

Happy NEW YEAR! (:

The last day of 2010...

2010-12-31T15:36:00.001+08:00

Yet again, the year is coming to an end. It's a year where I'm rather alone most of my life.

This year has been easy and relaxing in the first 1/4 of the year (I didn't go out to work for during the transition break from secondary school to poly) , however it was also a really tough and horrible one in the second 1/4 of the year. Not used to the poly life, not used to not knowing where I am going, really emotional and it was really tough to overcome my frets and emotions. I'm very regretful to say that the last 1/4 of the year wasn't really smooth going as well. I took loads of things for granted. Like how I should be putting me 100% in everything I am doing, but I'm really tired of ALL the shit in school, from work and such! ): I hate myself so much for being a dickhead and being complacent too.

I also hate how the ending of 2010 time management is like shit, everything was just a big mess and I started losing my direction when I was heading to at the beginning of the race. I guess loads of people has overtaken me, I can regret cry and wallow in self pity, but it doesn't change anything. I also want to apologise for not putting my 100% when it comes to spiritual events. ant

This year there wasn't really much interesting things that made my life really awesome, but I really hope in year 2011 there will be a change of events. My wishes in 2010 can it all come true pleaseeeeeeeeeeeee! I really hope it's possible. My life really depends on it! ):

May 2011 be a year as amazing as this and enjoyable one too. I want to be able to pass all these difficult times in my life and start the brand new year with changing all the bad points I have in year 2010, continue to get good grades, good health and be with my beloved ones.

HAPPY ADVANCE NEW YEAR TO MY BLOG READERS!! (:
May god bless you! Have an amazing and fruitful 2011 too!!

Had the last meeting with the awesome friends of mine last night!! I love how everyone are still making the effort to hang out together before the year comes to an end!! I really enjoyed the end of 2010!! And my wish to have the 7 all gathering together came true before the year closes!! ^^

Oh yea, to my 2 birthday girls: HAPPY BIRTHDAY & I HOPE YOU HAD AN AMAZING DAY YESTERDAY TILL THIS MORNING. May the new year bring in good fortune and amazing new events that adds colour to your life. HAPPY 18TH BABES! <3

Here's a picture to end the year with! Bye! ^^

The the season to be jolly

2010-12-25T15:21:00.002+08:00

HEY ALL THE FOLKS OUT THERE, MERRY X'MAS!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY IS JESUS TOO!! ^^

Have an amazing 2010 christmas with the people you love & god bless you all! Another 6 more days till a brand new year!! May the year 2011 be a one full or greatness and awesome times. HOPE you have a great 2011 yea!!! Well set your resolutions before the start of 2011!!

Oh yeah met with PDP peeps on the 23rd. Watched TRON and had dinner at Marche. Awesome gathering (well, didn't talk much but still) and have an amazing time snapping pictures of those guys. It has been a longgggggggggggg time. Really longggggggggggggg one. Time really pass super fast.

Shall blog an entry on the 31st, to mark the ending of 2010. Making this as my usual rountine. (:

CIAOS~

I've been waiting on the sunset

2010-12-23T00:46:00.006+08:00

Yo wassup folks! L O to the R A I N E here! (:

I'm feeling slightly happier now. Partially it's because I've been trying to find ways to run away from all that is running in my head. I've found it! And surprisingly it's working out fine as well! Credits also goes to my awesome buddies who have been around my like forever in my life. They have made my world a better place for me to live in. So yea, my life is SLIGHTLY happier now. HOWEVER it's not totally happy going yet!!!!!!!! When schools in, all hell is gonna break lose. So get the hint? I'll be back emo-ing like $%#$%^ and spam words like "SCREW", "DAMN" and other words that are so gonna get my ass kicked by my dad.

Anwwwwwwwwwwwwww.............................

I'VE GOTTEN MY NEW "TOY" LAST WEEK!!!!!!!!!

With love from my parents ( partly because of my bugging I guess they were irritated by it and have no choice to succumb to get me what I want. MUHAHAHAHA! xD I'm a bad child and an annoying one to them I guess. HAHAHAHA! ) So these are what I've been playing around so far, doing these animation with shutter shot. ENJOY and LAUGH while you can before all the emo post covers it all up again. HOHOHO...

Gonna meet up with ma PDP folks yo tomorrow~ was hesitant, but yea... it's like a 1 year once event which is hard to come by so I have to go.

Oh yea, 2 more days till X'mas! MERRY X'MAS FOLKS AND MAY THE DAY BE AN AWESOME ONE WITH AMAZING FOLKS~ God Bless!

Bye.
song of the week: EVERYDAY + KEEP YOUR HEAD UP.
Awesome ones! (:

Walk Away When Sparks Fly,

2010-12-17T19:34:00.001+08:00

Looking at my blog, seeing how it's becoming more demoralising and stuff is breaking me.
I decided to create one that isn't that sad and emotional, well slightly livelier. Sad to say, I've lost the touch for blogging happy stuff. Only emotional events keep poping in when I look at my blog. Sad much huh? :/ After all the link says all... BROKEN-guitarstrings. Ok, feeling slightly better and have a tint of happiness now.

I'm so sad. My chances of getting a Nikon was so close. I guess I wan't fated to get the Nikon today. I'll get you soon one day. I will! (: My life is just fast pased, school and stuff. So glad that I've the opportunity to meet up with some of the awesome folks in my life. This holiday really took time to slow down my pase a little and look on the bright side to get inspired, get some air breather. I did some season giving with CLAUDIA & LAU! Bought some goodies for the7 and give them as chirstmas present. Snacks as usual.

I've added loads of things on my list. Materialistic items. My daddy's gonna cry. keke. I really wish I can just sit down and look at the sceneary. *ok, random much*

I hate how I say something & don't mean it after awhile. I did make my stand. Just that ..... sigh...... : / Forget it. I don't anitcipate. I just leave it there. We're just merely... I know where I stand. I just really enjoy talking to you. That's all it is. Nothing more. However, no more. When I don't wish for & really hope you don't, you do. When I hope, it's never coming true. Lets forgo everything. Stop thinking, stop waiting, stop getting all happy when it happens. :/ Lau is so gonna kill me if she see this. DOOMED.

Ok, bye folks! :D

Where did it go?

2010-12-11T18:50:00.000+08:00

So depressed..
I've no drive to continue. Sighhh.
I hate where I am, HELL YEAH.
I know when it all comes back it will be definitely be screwed up.
How am I suppose to continue??

HOW HOW HOW?!?!

I'm so demoralised.

Defeated. 100% defeated.

I took a step back,

2010-12-08T23:08:00.001+08:00

Retracing my steps till the moments I'm not bothered with all the uneccessary crap. It's tough, but I've a strong will. Thanks to it, I was able to make things possible! I'm glad everything is changing again. (:

Sometimes life just seems like chapters of goodbyes....

2010-12-04T01:49:00.000+08:00

I need my holidays to be alone and find myself again....

I NEED MY HOLIDAY TO RELAX TOO, but.... I'VE TONS OF PROJECT TO FINISH! ):
1 more week of school & 2 days of exams before HOLLAAAAA... my holidays.
Can't wait for SASA to comeback, meet up with some pdp folks and of course hang out with the 7 ( I just realised it always 5 of us, next time the 5 will do :/ ) as well! ENDURE MORE, AND I REALLY DO HOPE PERSEVERANCE DO PAY OFF AT THE END OF THE DAY!

I've this feeling ... I'll screw up term 1 again.

Mentally drained..

2010-11-28T13:33:00.002+08:00

I'm so drained! It has been happening to me for the past few days. I'm really losing hope. Is it possible to even complete this project? They say it's easy, but it's killing me. I never feel so demoralised when it comes to this. Really... I'm exhausted. Really really really exhausted. D': Can I reach my goal? I really hope I can, cause I won't be able to survive if it doesn't come true. TT_____TT

DOOM DAYS ... UNPLEASENT MUCH!

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I made up my mind, before falling deeply and start being all emotional and shit. I'm gonna forgo everything. I'm going to keep my mind at it. I really am tired of feeling jealous, unhappy and sad because of what someone does. It's like my world revolves around the person. I'M NOT THAT KINDA OF GIRL ANY MORE! ONCE IS ENOUGH! NO MORE! GO AWAY EH EH EH EH!! (: Goodbye to the feelings I have and I've to fight in this process. Cause I ain't finding love no more. Wait for it to arrive at my door step. HWAITING!

You don't know what it's like.

2010-11-24T22:10:00.004+08:00

I'm trying to look for a person who I can sought to in this horrible time which my head & heart aren't feeling as one, but a mixture of different emotions. I realised it's great to listen to old songs, sometimes these songs has some solution to the feeling you're feeling now.

I really want to know what's going on in your mind, cause I'm hating how I feel towards you and hoping you do the same too. I act as if I can't be bother whenever I see you, but yes in fact I care a lot! I just don't like to show it. I've see loads that crushed me recently, so now I'm on the verge of letting go of the feelings I have towards you. But today I felt like you may be avoiding me or something (maybe I think too much) but I hope it won't be true. It will be good to hear a little from you or a little action so I can decide. If not this post will mark an end to everything. Not going to remember the feelings, letting everything go. Go back to the moment where we're just really friends in good talking terms and merely more. (I really do hope I'll be able to do it)

I'll be deceiving myself

if I'd believe you'll feel the the same way as I do....

WOAHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!! ALL RELIEVED AFTER TYPING THIS POST! Need not keep everything stuck in my chest. Since I can't find anyone now, blogging it out is the best way. I hope I'm giving an opportunity to change the mistakes I made in the past. Cause I don't want to be that little love obsessed girl who emo all her life. I've just recovered, I don't want to experience it all over again.

I've a test tomorrow, shall get back to it with a load taken off my chest! (:

Things you gotta know...

2010-11-21T17:09:00.002+08:00

One Of Us

2010-11-20T00:49:00.001+08:00

When you pick yourself up you get kicked to the dirt.

2010-11-18T14:06:00.000+08:00

(2 pictures of expression)

I thought I could take an air breather, but yesterday was the day that I realised I need to get back to the mode I've been in the past. I suddenly felt the urge overflowing within me. I started realising I can't seat back thinking that everything is gonna be fine. I can't pretend any longer. All this smiles and stuff, certain days are real, but some other days aren't. Really tired of trying to look good.

All that is happening is really causing me to lose my happiness. I really wish I could hang out really often with people that made my world an awesome one. At least, that's the only factor that adds colour to my life. I'm so tired.... is there any way out if this? I'M REALLY STRESS UP! I'm even losing 1/2 of my life span. I need chill pills and my life!

I need to get out of this hetic life and look at some beautiful things.

Slow down, you're walking too fast. ):

I'm running on empty...

2010-11-10T18:09:00.002+08:00

Somehow I knew I'll be stuck in this situation. (it's a matter of time...)
I'm feeling all emotional, even an urge to cry.
I really think that I'm unable to maintain what I've achieved. ):
I know loads of people thinks I'm able to do well, and definitely I don't want to disappoint them.
But my results are forever like a roller coaster....

I really don't know how to carry on.
Seeing everyone around me putting so much effort into their work.
I think I've not been putting much effort as I used too... & I'm starting to feel more lethargic nowadays.
Too much to do, starting lesson as 9am daily.

Everything is not making sense and I feel so demoralised.
I somehow don't feel like studying any longer.... really really exhausted!
I really wish I could just do what I did in year 1.1.. well at least I don't have to face so much more.

What's more with all the teenage stuff.
SERIOUSLY, GET OVER IT... IT'S NOT POSSIBLE... THERE'S SOMEONE ELSE.

Sighhhhhh, I HATE MY LIFE!!!

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I've gotta find some way
To fumble right through this

In the air,

2010-11-07T14:27:00.001+08:00

(The picture is for me)

Congrats to the those around me for finding your special ones. ^^
You guys gotta continue staying happy yea?
Don't make relationship a distraction, studies are important.

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Confession to make, I'm no longer fighting my way through to this massing war.
Tired of all this shit!
I'm just going to walk through it, taking things slow.
Why be a gan chiong spider?
I don't work well under pressure, but the opposite.
I really can't be bothered anymore.
Up till now I'm still not done with my work.
I guess people will be thinking, IMPOSSBILE.
But it's real... brain mulfunction.

Dorky, Charismatic and digging the style

2010-11-04T15:45:00.001+08:00

#HAPPYT.O.P/TABBI/CHIOSEUNGHYUNDAY!

Today's the day of the guy who means so much to me in my life. He's charismatic, cool and other words that describe this awesome dude! Despite looking all cool and clean, he's a dork behind those looks of his. Rapping is his thing, and doing it with his style. His rapping is what caught me falling head over heels. I'm willing to support him & his group till the end of time. THIS DUDE JUST MAKES ME GO GAHGAH OVER HIM! (:

HAPPY 24TH BIRTHDAY T.O.P!! ^^

Thanks to him, everytime I feel depressed or what sort... his rapping is what made things right.
I hope you have an awesome day today with people you love. I'll try to get my hands on your upcoming album!! T.O.P Daebak!

‎" Let us be grateful to people who make us happy; they are the charming gardeners who make our souls blossom. " 감사합니다!! ♥

HAPPY HALLOWEEN!

2010-10-31T13:44:00.000+08:00

HAPPY HALLOWEEN FOLKS!! ^^

Not going to blog as frequent, too many things to do nowadays.
If I do have time, I shall blog.

Despair,

2010-10-27T10:28:00.000+08:00

It feels as if I've loads on my chest to get it off.
I feel everything that is happening in school is really a weird turn.
Should I try looking for my teacher, to get it off my chest to make me feel better?
Should I consult my bestf(s)?

I feel like a tragedy & it's really uncomfortable.
I want to cry out all the sorrow, fear and pain.
I don't want to trouble my friends.
They themself have too much to handle.

I feel really tired with everything. :/

Seriously, I'm back to square one. T_T

WHERE CAN I GO FROM HERE?
I'm lost all over again.

Tragic Tragedy

2010-10-24T23:23:00.000+08:00

Hitting back to the books.
School is starting tomorrow. ):
I hope I don't get the pre-school depression/stress/insomnia.
I'm not going to survive school with it.
However, they made things worst. (quarrelling) D:

I hope school goes smoothly. REALLY.

ahhhh, I've not been able to do my post for IMI's blog due to hectic weekend schedule.
KPOP CONCERT & OTHER STUFF. ):

A REALLY BAD START.

I hope I don't cry tomorrow, cause I just realised my tears are back. T_T

It's happening all over again

2010-10-20T23:24:00.002+08:00

Trying to run away, find an escape from reality once more.
(Yes, living in TV series for the past few days)
I'm trying to devour my hate and change it to happiness.
It's still not happening.

School pressure, it's getting on me all over again.
I'm starting my question my ability too.
Am I able to handle it?
Am I strong enough to pull through?

I'm feeling like hell.
I need to find my meaning in life all over again.
This time, I'm trying not to confide in anyone.
Don't want to make it feel like I'm a tragedy in the making.

Silly emotions. :/