Face reality and endure.

Hello all,

Another new year, another new semester.

More new goals to set as well.

The coming semester feels so alien to me. One of my classmates who I can relate to on so many levels is MIA, which saddens me. People who tend to go missing always end up leaving school. Losing 1 was a big blow to me, another will be worst. I hope I will get to see her when school reopens and may everything be the same as it is, or at least better. Cause right now I feel so alone, which sucks. Fear of something new I guess and my self esteem is still on the low right now.

On the side note, thank god for helping me get out of a horrible place I am in last semester. This coming semester will be worst of. I know it. 4 study modules, 3 of which I hope to pass but predict will fail so bad. T_T I still am willing to try though. My schedule is not pact, but I know I will laze around and procrastinate. I just hope the coming semester will be a miracle and OF COURSE 1000% hardwork again, more than this semester.

This is a battle I am willing to fight. I know even alone with an extra 1 semester compared to my friends I have to do it. YES YOU CAN, YOU WILL, YOU MUST!

With my constant sneezing and tiredness, I need to end here.

Bye.

First paper, part death sentence.

I JUST HAD THE BEST REST EVER SINCE LAST WEEK.

Maybe partly because I had the opportunity to sleep at 10pm and wake up early. Isn't that better than burning midnight oil? It is also an excuse for trying to escape the remaining chapters I need to study for the paper later that starts at 1pm. 

This exam marks the beginning of my life on a thread, whether I can continue my university education or say goodbye. I am not exactly in the shape that I was hoping to be in. Well, life doesn't always go the way we want it, doesn't it always? T_T I hope that whatever tension and stress I am feeling goes away before the exams, WHO WANTS TO FAIL?!

Alright, I'm done ranting. 

Need to establish a good relationship with my notes. 

Maybe next May

1 more month...

1 more chance... 

... before all hell breaks loose...

(The start of school!)

The past 2 months of holiday wasn't all comfort and happiness, although I did managed to hang with my friends. Half my my life span during the holidays was spent worrying and freaking out on results, upcoming semester and what now. Resulting in a serious case of insomnia. I have to start with the pep talk and self motivation. Funny how 3 months can just fly past so quickly. I REALLY HOPE I CAN MAKE IT NEXT SEMESTER! *FINGERS CROSSED*

Now I have to go and plan the remaining of my holidays with the following activities before I have no life once again...

1) HK Trip.
2) Meetup with the 7! girls when I get back from HK.
3) Meetup with YY & Yvette.
4) Brunch with Agnes, Ming Jia and Hui Ting.

I hope I do not spend so much time on the above events that I don't have time to prep myself for the new semester and not slack off.

Break the tension

I know I can't stay away much from this blog and my predicament is right. I really did try my hardest to stay away especially feeling like crap now. However, I need this post so badly! My mental state is in a total wreak right now, because...

I HAVE A QET TOMORROW AND I KNOW THE POSSIBILITY OF PASSING IS CLOSE TO NONE! (I really hate to admit that..)

I don't need any other people convincing me that I need to be positive, calm and shit. I know my English standards; spelling is atrocious and my content is as kiddish as it can get. Not only that, I have a hard time organising my thoughts whenever I freak out and no amount of deep breathing is going to get rid of that fear flowing in my blood. Besides, I can affirm anyone that I know that I will definitely be freaking the hell out almost every millisecond, second, minute and hour till the test end.

I really do hope I will be able to write something on the piece of paper, else I might as well not turn up and get enrolled in the additional English module that all the candidates who failed will be enrolled in. Right at this moment I am feeling like shit because I can't even get any ideas for a simple sample paper. I might as well have a F.L.U.N.K OR S.C.R.E.W.E.D written in red on the entire paper.

To all the gods-who-are-helping-the-qet-candidates, please bless me by letting me pass (need not be a fantastic pass but an OKAY, NO NEED EL MODULE! pass) so that I don't have to take another module that I am soooo sure might kill me with the amount of modules on my plate. PLEASE GOD. PLEASE.

I really do need a miracle. A FREAKING MIRACLE. ):



//shit just got reaaal with blackboard. i need to pass y2.1 to go to aussie else... i might as well... 

A woman is leaving, though a guy is singing for her…

 3 MORE DAYS TO D-DAY!

D-DAY OF THE RELEASE OF BIG BANG's SPECIAL ALBUM!

Hi there folks,

here I am blogging at wee hours of the night (inspiration gain from the day? lol?) as usual. I'm feeling 2 kinds of emotions now: FREAKED & EXCITED!

Freaked: Going to go for the briefing all alone tomorrow for this event coming soon. Well, it's something I've never did in my life before, so yea, kinda freaking big time about tomorrow and hesitant. I'm introvert and all you see. But this is a good experience, trying to break away from my comfort zone. So ya, hoping every thing's gonna work out fine. WISH ME LUCK!

Excited: I was kinda worried about it at first, but now all is good! I thought I had some problem with my order, but not it's alright! I just received my email for the payment! HELL YEAH! I know worried over a ridiculous order for BIG BANG's album to some, but it's my wish to get a BIG BANG album alright! It's so exciting to open one of their album listen to their voices. HAHAH,  I know I'm one heck of a fan, but I believe VIPs all feel the same way... excited about their album! I think it's a blessing in disguise. I almost got their 4th mini album but hesitated cause the songs are so little. I'm glad I did stop that decision. I felt kinda guilty for not ordering an album to support them to reach the top in the charts. Now I have all the reasons in the world to feel like a good VIP. xD Crazy FAN GIRL MUCH? :P

I just love blogging, since I don't really have anyone to pour out on such stuff and mixed emotions. (Stuff that aren't really important) Any way, learnt a lot from a show. I think rather of secrets pulling people closer, people are torn apart. Certain things are best kept to ourselves.

Alright then, that's all for tonight. Shall blog about me conquering my fears going to some place alone I'd die if I knew no one. Having an early one tonight after finishing episode 19 of "Pretty Little Liars".

Goodbye ^___^