Hiving High Hopes?

I have never felt any emptier. I wish tears could easily fall and set a whole lot of emotions free, but what am I even feeling?

The fact that you are miss some things and holding on to things that will never work out. Is there any easier way to let things go?

Or is this merely PMS. Why has it been so hard on me recently? ):

I wish I am given a solution for things in my life...

Complicated

Why do I feel the way I do. I know it would never be, but this constant nagging hope lives in me. Articles after articles are signs how I should be ignoring every single internal battle that my head and heart are having, forget whatever feelings I am having and would be having.

Being the person I am constantly putting my emotions in front of anything. This weakness is really anxiety ridden and really causing all the sleepless nights. If it is possible, I wish I was just a friend and never developed anything more than that. I hate this feeling of being trapped in the endless emotional circle. It really sucks to be me right now. I really wish I could simply just leave it all behind.

My life sucks so bad right now... I just need closure or just maintaining the friendship...

I hate how it is right now... T_T

Try to fix me

"And I had the week that came from hell

And yes I know that you can tell"

I know I should be spending my time mugging for the finals right now but somethings aren't just as easy. I can't get shit into my brain and I have no idea how I am I going to go for the exams tomorrow. Can I simply get an MC for the exams take a break off school and restart in year 2014 as a year 2 student all over again? Somethings aren't as simple as that.

Sometimes what we get isn't what we are looking for after all. I feel so much pain and sorrow I really don't know what to do about it. Now I know I am back to that little girl who let down her whole world. I worked so hard to get to where I am but why do I feel so drained and not motivated. Miracles, what are they? I don't even they they exist in my life any more. I am as hopeless as I can be but life isn't going the way it should be.

I wanna end all my misery. I want to end it all....

SCHOOL'S BACK

!@##$%^$%ASDASDER!

Yes, school is starting tomorrow -_-lll which means more hell days are  to come. Now I have this undying splitting headache that occurs as and when it likes. So there I went today get my eyes, checked to see if my headache was related to the changes of my eyesight degree. AND GUESS WHAT?! My Astigmatism has INCREASED! Horrible much! Too much computer -_-lll so a reason to use the computer less?? HAHAHAH.


I choose 2 of these brands. (Design of the glasses are not the ones found at the optician.) The first one I liked the side but the lens size is rather small and the colour don't suit me. So going back to the basics, taking a black frame of the other brand and you'll get to see images of it when I collect them either on Wednesday or Thursday. Excited to get them! But -_-lll sucks to know my degree increased. WT__!


So yea, toodles. Going to sleep soon and off to school with MONDAY BLUES. :/