Where do you wonder when you are lost

I hate not finding my neutral point right now. I feel like a lost bird, no where close to home. 

Striving for the past 2 years and seeing the people I spend 2 years with all graduating soon sucks so bad. I know it's not a matter of how fast or graduating on time... Cause at the end of the day, you still get that paper. But it still saddens me how life runs this way. ): 

I just wish what God has placed in my path is telling me I can do more beyond what I think right now and it's a sign to let me grow (I know I'm not matured enough recently... Real obvious)! 

Cause as time passes, I feel lonelier and worst off. T_T 

I just need signs from you God, to help me, guide me through this low. I realised I have a lot of lows till the extend that I'm so mentally exhausted. T_T

Whatever it is, life still goes on.

(Ranting here feels so good!)

What does it takes?

"Sometimes I wish something in the picture won't exist, 

but I'm quite exhausted from being the only one involved in this..."

I feel like crap. The feeling of constantly being in a vicious cycle and being so silly. Why can't I just let this go once and for all and continue the life I have been living all this time? Draw that line regardless. Why am I constantly drawn to the "bad habit"?

Right now I really do miss my familiar faces, cause they are the ones that give me the strength to kick the bad habit that is killing me softly.

Regardless, if this is a sign... please stop letting it get to me. At least show it will lead to somewhere and not this messed up feelings, attachment what-so-ever I am having!!!

IN THE FIRST PLACE WHY AM I SO SILLY?! T_T

FORGET IT... JUST END WHATEVER THIS IS!!!