Letting it go, never looking back. It's OVER!

It's been tough, but the toughness build a brand new me! (:
Yea, that's right!


Listen up.. LORRAINEKPS IS FULLY FINE NOW!
Never looking back, never grieving, never feeling unwilling again.
Cause what is mend to be will be, what is done cannot be undone.
Whatever it is, I'm glad it's over!!
& I'M SO DARN SURE ABOUT THAT!
Actions did confirm everything... what i thought was good was totally CRAP!
So what for wasting my time, let go & focus on my studies.
12 pointerrrrrrr man! (:


People maybe thinking...
I maybe taking this very easily, but it wasn't like that in the morning.
Who will not cry, emo & grieve over it is totally inhuman.
Yea, i admit i cried. Yeps, it's worth ending all the grief together with tears.
What ever your comments might be, i don't care.
Cause i will be a great let down to my friends if i don't recover fast.
They care, stood by me and were very worried!
I don't want to be a useless friend, making them feel so worried. (they have worry enough last year!)
THANKS A LOT!!!!
It really worth have friends like you guys!
Especially, LKF telling and making me think.

Really realised my foolishness, hahas~, silly me.
But it was also 'your' charater i'm starting to hate.
Whatever it is, it's over...
LORRAINE KEONG PEI SHI IS GOING TO BE FINE.
GOING TO SCORE FOR Os
SHE'S GONNA SMILE & PROVE THE ENTIRE WORLD HOW STRONG THIS "LITTLE" GIRL CAN BE! (people always look down on me, and it's my time to PROVE!)
YES! LORRAINE'S BACK! (:

NOT GOING TO BE BELLAAAAAAAA!

♥ 'Cause I'm not comin' back I'm closing the door
I used to be trippin' over missin' you but I'm not anymore
I got the picture phone but baby your picture's gone
Couldn't stand to see your smile every time you dialed

'Cause it's over
you know it's over this time
So when you call I'm pressin' seven
Don't wanna hear your messages messages
I'm tryna erase you from my mind
'Cause it's over
I swear, it's over this time
So don't keep callin' leavin' messages
Don't wanna know where you been
Baby 'cause it's over

I'm just someone that can't take any blows anymore

I feel like a fool, an idiot to even fall for you in the very beginning...
You used to be all that i ever ask of, that most important someone in my life...
Now gone, forever gone.

Thanks for everything...
Thanks for those memories...
Thanks for making my analysis right...
Thanks for fooling me.....
THANKS FOR WASTING MY TIME...
THANKS FOR HURTING ME...
THANKS FOR LYING...
THANKS FOR MAKING ME FEEL JOYOUS FOR AWHILE BUT END UP IT'S ALL FAKE...
THANKS FOR CHEATING MY FEELINGS...
Thanks for everything you did...

You're no different from any guy out there!
I thought you were different, someone special.
Ended up, me proved to me that all guys are really JERKS!

我發誓不再說謊了　多愛你就會抱你多緊的
我的微笑都假了　靈魂像飄浮著　你在就好了
我發誓不讓你等候　陪你做想做的無論什麼
我越來越像貝殼　怕心被人觸碰　你回來那就好了
能重來那就好了

But that's not the case, cause you cheated my feelings.
AND I WILL HATE YOU FOR THAT!!
You made me think there was a possiblity...
All of it now seems like a illiusion, all the happened in the past.
Goodbye, it's going to be tought to let go... )':

I wonder what will become of me?
Buried in books, to forget the pain i will face in future?
Idk... i hope i won't be the next bella, being a zombie.
I really cried a lot for you, but it was just me and my stupid willingness.
I WASTED TEARS, TIME & A LOT OF EMOTIONS ON YOU!. ):

How could someone just take,
All that I'd ever loved?
But never love someone like I love you,
'Cuz I feel more ashamed,
To know what I can do,
I've never missed someone like I've missed you,

♥ 想念是會呼吸的痛　它活在我身上所有角落
哼你愛的歌會痛　看你的信會痛　連沈默也痛
遺憾是會呼吸的痛　它流在血液中來回滾動
後悔不貼心會痛　恨不懂你會痛　想見不能見最痛

No, he can't read my poker face

I really love lzx to the maxxxxxx!!
He's really beyond words!
♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ :D

Life now is like this.....
glad that it's like that .
Today's, the 7 MONTH! (:
It has passed 1/2 a year! YEAHHHH! (:
HAPPY ♥♥♥ 7TH MONTH! XOXOs...

Hmmm, what should i call the meal I'm eating now?
LUNDIN?
CHNER?

I'm damn hungry, i skipped lunch & now eating the so called lunch. Hmmm, high chance skipping dinner tonight. OK, cut the crap. Life now a days are hectic! Really hectic, today & tomorrow's the only days i don't have to sit in front of anyone & taking out any TYS or TEXTBOOK! So I'm so happy when time passed till it's Thursdays & Fridays. Especially Fridays, it rocks big time! Cause guides now is pretty slacked, so i have all the time in the world to wonder around the school & also.... (hahas~ lok fengfeng & co. know what i mean) HAHAHA!

New sitting arrangement tomorrow, hopefully the class will look better. Cause i really can't take the way it was. Doing work & even walking around in class! Zzz! Now sitting with Low QiQi (?) Aka Low Bian Tai & not forgetting Aw piggie!! HAHAS~ Life is rather boring now a days, so far the worst day of the week is like TUESDAY!

1) Late for tuition
2) slept in the bus; superrrr tired
3) missed my stop.
4) gotten down & walk, cause i thought i knew the way
5) due to the construction of the church, i thought i was in a place idk.
6) i took a cab & ended up ... FREAKING NEARRRRR! ):
7) MY $4.30 + EXTRA CHARGES CAUSE PAST 5PM!

Zzzz, me & my silliness! I really lost it that day! Wednesday nothing much, home straight away for tuition. Thursday, chiong homework day. Lols, tomorrow... should be a HAPPY DAY! (: Last day of school for the week! x: Ok, i have nothing to blog, just rather busy engrossed with all my school work and F&N coursework, life is getting really boringgggg! Awaiting for tomorrow... (:

So yea, shall end here... Homework Homework!
Toodles.
- 9 days till VALENTINE'S!
- 6 days till Leong "KwanFok's" birthday!








♥ What I needed most was to love and to be loved, eager to be caught.
Happily I wrapped those painful bonds around me; and sure enough,
I would be lashed with the red-hot pokers or jealousy,
by suspicions and fear,
by burst of anger and quarrels.

If all our life is but a dream...

As my life is starting to turn my grey sky colourful,
once more... THE THUNDER STORM CAME CRASHING IN!
My sky now is burning red, blazing hot till all the water (patience) have evaporated!

What I'm i to you? A friend or just any spare tyre you can get on the streets?
Some times i see you sitting there rather lonely, chat you. You gave me that looked.
Tried again, but to other people you treated them differently like a friend you treasure.
If you don't treasure me, tell me.
I know all those incidents that are happening to you.
Neglect you, you say you felt left out.
But we thought you don't want to talk to anyone.
So i left you there, i think i choose to wrong time to talk to you.
I'm left to suffer the cruel faith.
If that's the case, i have a taste of my own medicine.
I don't want to bother any more.
Leaving you alone....

I will continue to be happy & go crazy like the whole of this year shall be,
when you're fully recovered than you shall talk to me.
I can't face that face that made me so agitated any more.






Love is a smoke made with the fume of sighs.
Being purged, a fire sparkling in lovers eyes.
Being vexed, a sea nourished with lovers tears.
What is it else?
♥ A madness most discreet, a choking gall and a preserving sweet.

会呼吸的痛

想念是会呼吸的痛　它活在我身上所有角落

哼你爱的歌会痛　看你的信会痛　连沉默也痛

遗憾是会呼吸的痛　它流在血液中来回滚动

后悔不贴心会痛　恨不懂你会痛　想见不能见最痛

我发誓不再说谎了　多爱你就会抱你多紧的

我的微笑都假了　灵魂像飘浮著　你在就好了

我发誓不让你等候　陪你做想做的无论什么

能重来那就好了


That's pretty much what i want to say..

I have this urge to change my blog link,
Cause- For a pessimist, I'm pretty optimistic! (:

When i got hold of an idea i shall change it, currently brain blocked! X:
Relatives are coming later (around this time) after that tuition, dinner at grandpa's house later.
DOUBLE SIGH! IT'S GONNA BE HELL OF A BORINGGGGGGGGGG!


ZzZzZz, omg now than i realised it's 1st feb.
Pretty soon it's gonna be the 7th month.
Just 4 more days...
This means more than anything.. haiz~

Toodles,