And I never knew I could feel that much...

Gym.! (:
Healthy people, yeps, US!
However behind it, there's a reason to go to the gym... for the stamps of course!
We didn't want to run to Mali. hahas~

Planned in school today, asking them to come over to my house (the gym) to work out. The 4 of us first headed over to my house, bought lunch back home. Claudia & Kelley had to stay back in school for something before meeting us. So they went up to my house chatted & played uno, 4.30+ headed down. Played badminton and used the gym equipment. Took pictures as evidence to prove to Mr Lee to get the stamps. Tomorrow gonna claim them!

Claudia is the only person who is not as risk for the 'running to Mali' programme. Cause she got 9 stamps, while Agnes & me ZERO! Pathetic! :/ Spammed pictures and managed to took some pictures with my dearest cliques! (: Love them to the max ♥♥♥♥♥ ! (: Today's pretty relaxing in school. Oh ya, i passed my Social Studies & Physics! Like yeah! Tomorrow, geog & chem. I so gonna fall into the trap of not doing well, it's a for sure!

I uploaded some random pictures, 2 more from the cycling trip. 2 pictures of 2 key chains which i ♥ tons, stitch! (: Not forgetting my red NANO- before having a cover!! (: OK, enjoy the unglam pictures of us... hahas~

TOODLES!

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The miles are getting longer, it seems

CYCLING @ EAST COAST! (:
Agnes Li & Lau, Cally, Hui Ting, Nakiah, Siti, Xin yi, Kwan Foo, Ren Yuan & me!
So sad, Claudia cannot tag along with us.. bummers... ):

Met Kelley & mei zhi first. Around 12+, headed to PS to see Kelley's block bear. However before that we headed to the arcade tried to catch the stitch. Kelley was so sweet... she paid $4, so did I, to try to help me catch that stitch. Tsk! He was a stubborn one! No matter how many times we tried, it didn't move a inch at all. Wasted my $4 on it, i should have go to 'Toy Box' and bought a key chain instead. $3+ and it more worth it. At least i will be able to get something other than leaving that scammer arcade empty handed. So disappointing... ):

Walked around till 1+ before heading back to Boon Keng to buy bubble tea and meeting up with the rest of the people. Although we weren't on time, still not the last few to arrive. Lau was there first followed by us and slowly the others came. However, kelley & I left to share a cab with LKF & RY. While the others wait for huiting. Sorry about ps-ing you 2, siti & meizhi. They took a bus there instead. While huiting & the other 2 took cab.

Reached east coast we went to mac, sat there to wait for the others. When huiting & the other 2 came. We asked them to go and cycle first. Cause she have to leave at 4.30pm. In order not to waste her time, we ask them to leave and we waited for meizhi & siti to arrive as well as
nakiah. Chatted a lot in Mac and soon it started to rain. Never mind, we shall wait... wait till it was 5+ than we were able to cycle. Xinyi & Agnes lau left cause they didn't want to cycle any more.




Had fun with them, but i was still not happy about some stuff. Not with them, but some other stuff. This includes, at the bike shop. One of the chee na guy, _l_ing attitude man! What kind of service is this, teenagers so? You still ought to respect us dude! Fool! _l_ off man! Cycled until 7+, took pictures to get stamps for the what booklet. I look super retarded. I didn't have the mood to really smile a lot when i was cycling. On the way back had a good chat with Kelley, 2 of us only. I miss that a lot, i really did miss those times. After that took bus back & bought kfc home cause kelley have to go home. Stupid lkf didn't tell me he wanted to eat. ROARRRR!

Back home chat with them on msn again. Hhahas~ Played viwawa with them. Didn't pay a lot of attention to the game. Just clicking any box. They slept at 3am, while i slept at 4. I can't fall asleep until i listen to my ipod and felt asleep. I'm feeling way wrong since friday, those urge those memories are awaken again. How can i stop it? How do i numb back the pain... idk... i guess i will be alright soon enough. I'm lying to myself, saying that i detest you. I say i hate you but i miss you. In fact, idk why you are clouding up my mind. ):

I am exhausted, hiding my feelings really is a wrong idea?
The pain is back, i can't help but let a tear flow down my cheek.
In fact, what is hurting me the most?
I did all the things i could to just numb the pain & forget about it.
I g n o r e, a v o i d and a whole lot more...
Seems like maybe it's been a month and something about it triggered the emotions.

" This time was different
Felt like, I was just a victim
And it cut me like a knife
When you walked out of my life
Now i'm, in this condition
And i've, got all the symptoms
Of a girl with a broken heart
But no matter what you'll never see me cry "

I hide all the emotions, i want to prove that i'm not a softy.
I will survive even i'm alone, it's not about guys and it will never be.
This time it have proven me wrong... ):
I OUGHT TO BE BACK TO NORMAL BY TOMORROW!

I'm staring out into the night,
♥ Trying to hide the pain.
I'm going to the place where love
And feeling good don't ever cost a thing.
And the pain you feel's a different kind of pain.


W a s it all that e a s y...
To just put a s i d e your f e e l i n g s ?

只要你 可以永远开心, 我会情愿 渐渐被忘记

Sassy Girl, Chun-Hyang 豪杰春香 ROCKS BIG TIME!!
Both of them make such a cute couple! Lovely couple... awwww! *SNIFFS!* Last episode, so sad! ):

My pain have come to an end, common test is over! However, mid years are coming up really soon. Dang, like 2 more months till MYE!? Sigh, and i guess tomorrow's the only day to relax and enjoy the only "freedom". I think after this March holidays I'm really gonna lock myself in my room and have proper dating time with "HIM/HER/THEM". You get the hint? If you do... good for you.

It's a major set back now, the feeling of laziness is overwhelming. I'm tried to carry on, but the future lies in my hands. Well, i can't be a major disappointment can't I. I have so many people who believe i can do well, i don't bare the heartaches and the disappointments anymore. Endurance is what i need now. This few days were a major torture, and my head can't seem to absorb any facts. Darn it! After this major disappointing Common Test, mug like mad to do well for the rest. Hopefully...

It's horrible, it's boring.. no pictures. Such a life sucks. It really is sucky. ): As well as the emotions... DANG! I realised my change in the type of music i'm listening to. Weird.
idk why. Why do i keep thinking about you. ):

OK, i think my post is really horrible. I keep blogging about school, it's making me irritated. However I'm still blogging about it, ironic. HAHA

Toodles,
*p/s: i tried to reply tags & the damn thing just gone like that. I'm irritated, so further typing of the blog will make me snap/flare at people. So i ought to stop.

Should i be sorry?
♥ Am I suppose to be sorry for falling in love with you ?
I know my love is making it difficult for you .
If you understand me, then you'll know why I can't forget you currently .
Please forgive me for crying just a little longer .
You said it wasn't meant to be and I try to cover my eyes, but you're still here.
Even though there may be a lot of pain when we're together, I'll still be happy.
Even though both my ears were covered I still can hear what you always told me.
If only I don't have to erase anything...
I really want to really love you.

是 否 能 走 到 最 後 一 起
是 否 能 重 新 選 擇 不 再 放 棄. . .

What took you so long, Cuz I keep hanging on

I know, common test = study.

I just can't seem to get myself to engaged with it since yesterday.

My current papers are not well done, just a slight improvement in English. Maths was a disaster ( over confidence :/ ) Chinese, miracle, just passed. Social studies, geog & physics grades are unpredictable. F&N the test passed, but idk about the coursework. & tomorrow chem. Dang that chemical analysis part suck big time! I have to take forever to remember that table. I only can remember Fe 2+, Fe 3+, NH4 + & Cu 2+. The rest blank! This common test need to build up my motivation & perseverance to study, no more slacking. (oh, how i wish my persistence is forever). ):

I'm worn out, sometimes you gotta break down and breathe. I really need to go for a motivational course to help me motivate myself once more. Exhausted, when will it officially end? Sigh... after this my tuition timing will somehow increase as well. ZOMG, idk how am i going to last. It's gonna be a tough one.

Toodles,

♥ Goodbye may come as a shock
Even though I love you a lot
I’ve given every breath I’ve got
Sometimes you gotta break down and breathe
And how many times I gave my heart
To how many times we fell apart
And it equals
A promise in the dark
So don’t promise me

It might just be a sudden shock.

"You can shed tears that she is gone,
or you can smile because she has lived.
You can close your eyes and pray that she'll come back,
or you can open your eyes and see all she's left.
Your heart can be empty because you can't see her,
or you can be full of the love you shared.
You can turn your back on tomorrow and live yesterday,
or you can be happy for tomorrow because of yesterday.
You can remember her only that she is gone,
or you can cherish her memory and let it live on.
You can cry and close your mind,
be empty and turn your back.
Or you can do what she'd want:
smile, open your eyes, love and go on."





Life is really unpredictable, you don't know when someone will just disappear from your life and never return. All the agony... all the pain and sorrow.

Have anyone thought about life, how fragile it might be.
A close friend jumping around you happily and next you're attending his/her funeral?
Life is unpredictable, i learnt that today.
I have all those foolish thinking about suicide, now i won't ever think about it anymore.
The agony of parents, today i truly understand it.

I attended a funeral today, although I'm not close to him.. after all we used to be classmates.
I was shocked, idk how to react in that situation.
All i knew was my head was blank and just followed blindly.
Sigh, i felt the grief, the sorrow, the pain the mum felt.
My heart felt the ach, just seeing his mum.
Sigh, all the agony. :/

Learnt to appreciate life and dont take things for granted any more.
Sigh, i really learnt to appreciate life, treasure all those who care about me.
(i'm feeling perplexed...)






Rest in peace...


Sigh...