Stupid Liar

It's has been a long time since I blogged!

Finally changed my layout for my blog (stuck to the same layout for a year +). Anw, I'm gonna try blogging more often now since I've a new layout! (OH, I LOVE MY BANNER!!) Ok, blog later! Gonna go running with nurssy soon!! (:

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Met up with the girl above on thursday. Went to MIND Cafe @ Tamp. Safra. Had fun with her and ken's friends. Really had fun playing over there. Head to J8 aftermath and accompany her to wait for her friend to go for her meeting for some competition.

Since I have nothing to blog I'll blog another day!

p/s: Sigh, GOING TO GO FOR QING MING TOMORROW. FOREST/JUNGLE/WHATEVER IT IS. ): I don't mind going bishan to see my grandma, but going to the forest is yucky! && EARLY MORNING SUCKS! ):

I wish I could get everything right,

OOVOO-ed with my besties just now! Fun one! Since Claudia is in China now and we can only see her in like 5 weeks time, so we oovoo-ed. Sad huh? Miss her being around to hang with us. (rather, MORE THE MERRIER!) It ok, at least she will be back unlike SANDYYYYYYYYYYYY LIMMMMMMMMMMMMM! Sometimes I wanna hang with her but she's like in AUSSIE. ):

I decided to blog now since I'm feeling kinda down somehow. I feel like a part of my is break apart. Too much things to worry about, so much pain I'm feeling. Trying to ignore it all. After all at time ignorance is a bilss ain't it?

Sigh, I guess I always feel anxities when it comes nearer to my result release date. I don't feel so much during secondary school, but not I feel more pain when I don't do well .. more butterflies too. I need this so badly! I want to see myself shine! I'm damn worried about this thursday which I totally believe I can't see myself shine and in fact I believe my friends will be wayyyyyyyy better than me. I've been too slacky and took loads of things for granted. So if my results sucks I am to blame. Somehow a little part of me is still hoping wishing things will be as awesome as the semster I had in 1.1 but now.... who am I kidding.... everything just sucks.

I shall embrace the failure, the sub paper and the lousy gpa coming my way.

But is god still willing to help me out? Show me a bit more mircle? I really want to have good results but sometimes I'm just too burnt out. I need the next results to be great to let me know I am fighting a winning battle but not a losing one. I really do hope everything is alright.





WHATEVER IT IS I HAVE TO FACE MY NIGHTMARE THIS THURSDAY. I REALLY DO HOPE EVERYTHING IS ALRIGHT. EVERYTHING IS FINE. ): WHO AM I KIDDING?! I WILL FLUNK MODULES AND I DIDN'T PUT IN ENOUGH EFFORT.

ENOUGH SAID. I SHALL STOP BEFORE I GET SERIOUS INSOMINA AND TOMORROW I STILL HAVE TO GO BACK TO SCHOOL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Don't go home,

It's been ages since I talked about my "BFs", yeps all VIP's heart trob.

I've been listening to a lot of BIGBANG, their mini album and GD&TOP DON'T GO HOME. Don't go home (out for quite sometime now) is just freaking sweet! Every time I listen to that song I think about TOP in the MV at BIGSHOW. OMG, I officially lost this time. Even my heart just flutters at TOP images I also research on. Ahhhhhhhhhhh~

I have to re-draw my FAN & IDOL line once more. The other time TOP made me so memserised was HARU HARU. Now DON'T GO HOME has made me a crazy fan girl again. Ok, enough spazzing!


I'm like super bored. So blogging it out here. Later I have to go to school (DAMN, I DON'T WANT TO) to get my results from CMSK. Predictions: C is a for sure! CMSK, ANP AND MOS isn't my thing. Anw, better start preparing and I have to do abit of house work before I leave. BYE!

Tonight

Hey folks, ( well to who ever that even reads my blog now which is so dead)

I've not been blogging for awhile now. School takes up so much time that blogging and social media tools are totally even such a hassle and causing much hindrance to my school projects. Sigh, school sucks big. Anw, it's the school holiday now. So ignoring everything that is related to school NOWWWWWWWWWWWW! (even though thinking about how sucky my sem 1.2 results will be. FML.)

Well, I'm here cause I'm blogging about the awesome time with my babes in the 7 (dear oh couple, where are you gonna hang with us again??) We have doing different things recently - PICNIC, MARCHE AND USS. I decided to take risk, let my adrenaline rush within me. So, I mastered my courage to take the ROLLER COASTER! Awesome ride! Fun time before claudia goes to CHINA. Cutting the story short. PICTURESSSSSSSSSSSS TIMEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!! (Most of the pictures are available on fb though)

Trying to break through

I'm back to the days where school was hell for me once again.

How much I HATE LIFE.
There is only so much I can handle on my plate, but I seem to be over eating.
I need another 2 weeks of holidays to finish up all projects.... ):

I am so not looking forward to this Chinese New Year, worst one yet.
How do you survive in POLY?
Sometime I wish I was doing something else and not this...
SERIOUSLY.... HATING MY LIFE TO BITS.

Expected grades for sem 1.2: GPA 2.7!!
Expecting the worst, really no more over confidence only more sobbing this holiday!


I DON'T KNOW WHAT I AM EVEN DOING!!
HOW DO I FREAKING DO WELL?!?!?
ALL THE GUILT, ALL THE SORROW AND ANXIETY.