Forgive me, I'm just trying to find...

Hi there, I am back.

I know my come back post shouldn't be all sullen.

But I have to find a place to get things out of chest. If not, I have no idea how I am going to sleep tonight and head to school tomorrow or in the matter of fact work after school. Just having all stuck in me is so depressing and I can't even have a proper night rest. (Yes, body clock alarm at 4 in the morning despite sleeping at 12 - 2am) Yes, my life is messed up right now.

To be honest isn't but its just me. I am a wreak. I always let my nerves get the best of me. Sometimes I really believe I have anxiety issues and I am like almost an adult. I don't know how I can over come all this. I am too old for the crying shit too. I need to be tough.

I'll cut to the chase. I am freaking out on my next stage in life... university. I really hope I can get into one of the unis that I have applied else I really have no idea how I'd continue my life from there. Not to mention ... I shouldn't be so worries now but I have lost appetitie and what not. I will not have any idea what will happen to me later this year when I know I didn't get into any universities... that idea will freak me out big time now!

What ever it is I need to stop. I have to be strong and enjoy the now then looking in the future and freaking out over things that are not happening yet. That's me. See. I need to watch 'The Secret' to be back on track.

Phew, it's not a proper post but a ranting post of stuff that doesn't make sense don't you realize that? This like this happens to me. A LOT. I think I should blog more often. I feel so relieved now. (Wayyy better than my book or music distraction. Uh Oh!)

Leaving my place with a quote from ATL's sound...technically its sort of a love song but it sort of fit the emotions and feelings I am feeling for uni stuff. Yes, I AM ... D.E.S.P.E.R.A.T.E!

I'll be back soon. I hope. Busy. VERY.


p/s: I NEED A BUTTERFLYING BREAK. REALLY EXHAUSTED.

Oh, I can see now that all of these clouds

Are following me in my desperate endeavor

- Remembering Sunday; All Time Low

The start of 2013

2013 countdown fireworks

Last picture of 2012 and first picture of 2013!

I know I have not been blogging in awhile and totally am neglecting it.

Well I guess I have pretty busy with internship and enjoying the spare time by dining and chilling with all people possible in my life back in 2012. But I just can't stop myself from doing this... one of those post where you know I always do looking back at the previous year.

So last year...

• Almost completing my diploma requirement
• Made out the most of my remaining school experience by going for pre u seminar
• Making new friends
• Helping juniors
• Longest working experience in my life span
• Going overseas alone with friends, ok maybe its just a short bus ride but it does count yes?
• Hanging out with Yue Ying at least once a month
• Meeting up with friends I have not met in awhile
• Halloween celebration
• Constantly on the go reading
• Drinking liquor :P
• 2013 countdown outside and away from home
• Finally experiencing life as a 20 year old should be doing

So in the year ahead I really hope I can do so much more in my life especially I will a full fledge adult, I wanna LIVE IN THE MOMENT enjoy myself before I become too old to enjoy things in life. I also hope I will be able to get into a local uni and get a degree, prove to people who used to look down on me that even though I did not do very well in primary school I made it all the way here with hard work and tears! I want to prove I am capable of getting that degree I always wanted and do my parents proud. I really hope this up coming year will be amazing!

2012 is gone, so 2013 please be ready to knock some socks of my feet and give me one hell of a time, please?

Oh yes, I have not been really fulfilling my promise, I really ought to do more.... !!! I have to!!!

So close to sleeping...

I have not been blogging for a long time yea? Sorry about that. Partly it's because life just have been so tiring and have been sleeping really early every time I get home. I also have been making sure that my weekends are used wisely. Have been meeting my girls and finally that dude. Every second and minute has been used up really wisely.

If I have time I'll do a proper post soon ok? Sleepy face bye!

Heart On Fire

Oh hi there,

Still remember my existence? I know I have not been updating this space due to my hectic schedule in school. Well I'll try to do so now... but I am not exactly free too, despite it being the holidays. Final year students have their internship to clear after completing all the modules. And so, this is what I am clearing now in fact. 

Today's the first day at work and I guess because of all the introduction time passed rather fast. So I managed pass today with a small smile on my face at the end of the day but it was still STRESSFUL no doubt... I wish I was in school studying, really! Another reason why today passed by peacefully - my supportive girlfriends, Agnes and Cally! They took the time to come over to my workplace to have lunch with me. So sweet of them for supporting me on my first day.

I hope tomorrow is gonna work out fine. I will pray with a sincere heart tonight. I'll end here cause I can't seem to get my brain into typing proper english, in fact I don't know how I am going to do my daily reflection later on after dinner.

See ya soon.

p/s: I decided to blog cause I am really tired but I can't take a nap. Blogging to keep myself occupied.  Else after taking a nap, I would not be able to sleep tonight and I'll just die at my work place tomorrow. :S

Last of July 2012's

I realized I skipped out my birthday post this year which I will always do to thank the amazing people who made that day an unforgettable one. 

Well, this year it was small but I loved it to bits. I kinda spoiled my own birthday surprise by my lovely 5/7 of  my cliques. They came over late at night on the 8th of July since on the actual day we are all busy. Surprised me with a cake and prezzies. Loved that 2013 schedule book painstakingly made for me! Picture of friends, daily motivational quotes and small boxes  Can't wait to use it. I love the feeling of having them around just like that. Great b'day this year! Images are all on Facebook lazy to post them up here.

Thanks my lovely the 7! loves for the awesome about to be my b'day.

And here I am again sharing instagram images taken since the last post with the those images. Enjoy.