GG. FML.

Well well well, today has gone really "well" .... I just screwed up the very first paper of this semester, when failing is not an option at alllllll.

FUCK. Goodbye to next semester and everything I wish to achieve in this lifetime.

The truth will be revealed on 29th Dec, which I can predict I am not able to get that minimum and say goodbye. I really don't have the mood to move on if it ever happens this coming semester.

Bye. Off to sulk my life away...

First paper, part death sentence.

I JUST HAD THE BEST REST EVER SINCE LAST WEEK.

Maybe partly because I had the opportunity to sleep at 10pm and wake up early. Isn't that better than burning midnight oil? It is also an excuse for trying to escape the remaining chapters I need to study for the paper later that starts at 1pm. 

This exam marks the beginning of my life on a thread, whether I can continue my university education or say goodbye. I am not exactly in the shape that I was hoping to be in. Well, life doesn't always go the way we want it, doesn't it always? T_T I hope that whatever tension and stress I am feeling goes away before the exams, WHO WANTS TO FAIL?!

Alright, I'm done ranting. 

Need to establish a good relationship with my notes. 

The beginning of the repeated nightmare, new semester

Thought I'd share a bit of my fears before I embrace school tomorrow... Well, it should be today but due to the Saturday public holiday... so, you get the idea.

I know every Semester I get freaked over the changes for. This sem will suck so bad with my impending suicidal determination to try another semester. I am risking it all this time. Whether I will have a serious mark on my academic portfolio or sail it through and rest everything again. Who knows? Only the exam results could tell. And to say I just got up on my feet in poly with a good grade but emotionally struggling here and there every sem., my academic career has yet met with another downfall which I hope really isn't the end for me yet. T_T  

Next, DIP. Basically hardware isn't my thing, but I will still try to do it though. 2AUs. Just gonna do it and complete it. Trying my hardest to hold myself together and trying to pull off this the impending doomed in the upcoming 13 weeks.

I know I shouldn't  be stressing myself, but sometimes I just can't help it. I am like in freaked out mode whenever I have to face something so new and gradually get into the grove. MY ADAPTATION TO LIFE SUCKS. I wish I wasn't an adult... Haiz. But I am not giving up just yet. I will try not to be too negative and try my hardest this semester to hold on to the positive vibe with my Rasclat Bracelet. Maybe I should get the Lokai Bracelet as a reminder too.  

RANTING COMPLETED. STRESS RELIEVED. Off to prep for school tomorrow. 

Bye folks! 

Sempiternal

Why do I suddenly feel this is so accurate....

If you can't soar with the eagles, 

Then don't fly with the flock. 

Are you still getting by?

Maybe next May

1 more month...

1 more chance... 

... before all hell breaks loose...

(The start of school!)

The past 2 months of holiday wasn't all comfort and happiness, although I did managed to hang with my friends. Half my my life span during the holidays was spent worrying and freaking out on results, upcoming semester and what now. Resulting in a serious case of insomnia. I have to start with the pep talk and self motivation. Funny how 3 months can just fly past so quickly. I REALLY HOPE I CAN MAKE IT NEXT SEMESTER! *FINGERS CROSSED*

Now I have to go and plan the remaining of my holidays with the following activities before I have no life once again...

1) HK Trip.
2) Meetup with the 7! girls when I get back from HK.
3) Meetup with YY & Yvette.
4) Brunch with Agnes, Ming Jia and Hui Ting.

I hope I do not spend so much time on the above events that I don't have time to prep myself for the new semester and not slack off.