Can't seem to let this feeling end,

If only...

OH WHATEVERRRRRRRRRRRRRR!
I could exhange my body and soul with you,
so you would be able to understand how i feel about you.

& in the end, i always get the opposite of everything.

Be it, wanting to see you and not wanting to.

Wanting to be with someone you love,

or being with someone who loves you is the best choice?

I still don't get my feelings sometimes.
Yeah, weird.

Saw you from the distance,

I never knew what this song was about,

But suddenly now I do,

We used to breath without a doubt

We used to have this figured out..
Some how, can't bear to see all those tags not being replied.

Tag Replies:
Kwan foo: hmm, never think so much and plenty of stuff that made my day. :D
YANAA!: nvm, haha. icic. so you used to think i was sec? O_0?
ïmpεrfëctsàndy: haha, yeps. cause i want to see US. omg, canadaaaaaaa rocks!! hmm, i should consider it.
claudia: nvm la, not very interesting.
Hazel: haha! ya, insane woman!
Kwan foo: haha! no need to bold you alos notice her la! HAHA!
ïmpεrfëctsàndy: Overseas Family School. (:
Cally :D: lol, no worries. So do i. (:
ïmpεrfëctsàndy: lols, that's singapore's educational system. haha. x=
Candice: so glad to have met you before you're school starts!
LUANA: HAHA, ok good! haha, ok.
Peichin: ooo icic. haha!
Jaslyn♥: ooo ic. X= ya! i miss it a lot man!!!!!!
Joanna ;: hello to you too my dear!
luminn: ooo ic, ok. thanks a lot. haha, no prob. but r u sure it's touching. i think i wrote a grandma story. X=
BlurStar =): not gross! i also have la! haha!
Laifeng.: ya la!! damn cute! you such have kept it. the girl is damn cute la! hmmm, chooi tene's sister's friend took it.

Joys are shadows cast by sorrow

LUMIN, HAPPY 17th BIRTHDAY YO!
May all you wishes come true, enjoy you're birthday to max!

Love you, babe! :D

I was trying to break the record of "not blogging for like a month!". However, it seems pretty impossible. I have to many wonderful pictures of fellow Girlf(s) you see. haha! I bet they're so gonna kill me man!

This week , emotional roller coaster. In school, people cried (including me). I just had overflowing emotions and broke down in class, in school at the wrong time & moment. I know i let some people down. Causing huge disappointments. Now I'm going to get up on my feet, to pull through all the difficulties! My apologies to those i disappoint!

Yesterday went to PS with xinyi. To print the picture for the card for lumin's birthday. Spent quite sometime there. After that headed home. Today is so called, ever since the emotional week here's my jovial mood again, had fun studying with Girlf(s). Although we had fun, but we did study OK! I finished, leaving about 2 questions for bss's 2008 mid year paper, so it's an accomplishment!

Still sad though, never got the opportunity to meet up with my birthday girl today and wish her in person. Never give her the big birthday surprise as she wishes to have. Sorry babe. I rejected the offer of going to KBOX for a birthday celebration. Ended up cracking my brain. So hardworking yo. HAHA!

Weekends are here! Can't rest, need to study as mid-year is like the week after the next. O's are getting nearer as well. See, how the stress level is increasing weekly. And now the temperature in the classroom is causing major problem for my concentration. So please rain today!

Alright now, ending here.
Toodles, gonna catch a nap! :D

Study session with Girlf(s)! LOVE TO THE MAX YO!

Rabbits!

I was left to forget, forget about us

Sinful!.
I didn't start revision..
Whatever it is, i feel so rotten. D:

Haha, but i will mug really hard soon, I promise!
Can't fall asleep.
Tuition later, 7.15pm.
I hope i will be able to do maths later.
I believe i can!

Reply tags some other time,
p/s: LOVE I QUIT! I QUIT! I QUIT!- CLICK FIVE IS OMGGGGGGGG!!
I want more of click five's songs!

TOODLES,

If life was always so simple...

HAPPY INTERNATIONAL FRIENDSHIP DAY YO!

buddies from OFS! (:
Had plenty of fun them with them, in BSS & OFS!
So gonna miss them, miss the way they speak & stuff.
Although it might be a day or 2, i still enjoyed the time spend with them.
Their school is cool!
And I'm glad they had fun with us as well! (:

They arrived in the morning, they sat in class with us.
9.30am. Breakfast with parents.
10.45 went back to class for lessons.
After school, lunch, with chooi, huiting, Kelley, xf, wiji & Larissa(?) @ kfc.
They came for guides, Kelley went too.
(omg, HUI FANG & CANDICE CAME BACK FOR GUIDESSSSSSSS!)
After some team bonding/building games, need to accompany sec1s to library for their badge thing.
Kelley borrowed spider wick Chronicles.
Re watched again.

Buddies tried foot drills.
& play ball games.
Accompany them to wait for their bus.
Around 4.30pm they left. ):
4+/5 i guess dismissed from guides.
Went to eat dinner, after that my home, slack.
7.20+ they left.

OMG, CHANNEL U, 10PM SHOW LAST EPI! GOTTA CATCH IT!
Ok, signing off! (:
TOODLES!

*p/s: tomorrow early in the morning CIP!
& TAG MORE, reply tags tomorrow! (:

1) Me, Kelley & Sancia! (Chooi's buddy)
2) Beth, Kelley, Me! (Claudia's buddy)

1) Me & Saffron(?) with extra KELLEY!
2) KELLEY'S BUDDY, gen! She learns french! ZOMG!

1) My buddy, SHANNE!
2) Long time disappearance of my dearest daddy, CANDICE GOH!

TAG REPLIES:
QIWEI ,: i saw th mvn, it's in my ipod. However, i didn't cry. haiz~
Elizabeth: thanks a lot! (: take care too!
Kwan foo: so sure? it's just below ur tag dude. lols, no need anymore. you can have it. cause i'm feeling HAPPYAAAAAAAAAAAAAA now! :D and not just happy but superb!
Peichin: OMGGGGGGGGG! You too! cool! (: Which meeting do you always go to? the area. haha! cool! (: hard to find ppl who has the same chinese name as me.
ïmpεrfëctsàndy: ooo ic, so you replied in my blog. ic. (:
ïmpεrfëctsàndy: lols, i'm fine now. infact superrrrrrrr duperrrrr happy yo! (: haha! So all the living things are growing & i'm becoming younger!
jingyi: hi my dear! :D
Hazel: lols, hazel, you're insane right? no worries, i'm fine now. super happy infact! and btw, i will never be LES! HAHA, replying it now.
huifang: yeps, i do agress with ur statement. (: saw you today! (:
Jaslyn: yeps, i will you to yea. hahas, i'm fine now. no worries! (:
Liping: girl, you have told me to re-linked you already. nvm, anyway, u're re-linked! :D
QIWEI , ♥: HELLO! (:
YANAA!: nope, sec 5! (: why?
Hazel: yeps. (: cause it's a week's post.
Hazel: lols, LUCKY GIRL! [:
Joanna ;: HELLO JOJO! [:
QIWEI , ♥: why? update more, so it wont die! (:
ïmpεrfëctsàndy: i want to go US! )':
Joanna ;: yo! thanks for tagging jo!

The struggles I'm facing

Sometimes, i feel like I'm letting a lot of people down...

Today was kinda fun! (:
OUT OF 100%, PERHAPS 75-80%

Went to Overseas Family School for a one day exchange programme.
Had a buddy, Shannen, she's hyperrrrrr!
Every lesson i went with her if she saw anyone she knew she will intro to me.
I will be like: "HI!", "HEY!" or "HELLO!"
It's been pretty long since i enjoyed a day. :D
Their lesson seems to past faster than ours.
I love their maths lesson (in their school).
I have no idea what is the business management is about. x=
All i have to say is i enjoy today very much. (:

Perhaps, i need to be away from the stressful class once in awhile.

Tomorrow my buddy is coming to my school.
And i guess, they gonna find my class HOT!
Cause all their classrooms has air conditioners. *ENVY!*
I have that urge to study in their school.
The school fees are ZOMGGGGGGGGGG! Forget about it.
Anyway, hopefully i will be able to go to an overseas uni. *wishing hard!*
Well, now i hope tomorrow is equally fun as today.

Oh ya, HAPPY INTERNATIONAL FRIENDSHIP DAY IN ADVANCE! (:

*P/S: I SO WANNA STUDY IN AN INTERNATIONAL SCHOOL/OVERSEAS!! )':

SUPERRRRRRR MEANINGFUL!


I can almost see it
That dream I'm dreaming but
There's a voice inside my head sayin,
You'll never reach it,
Every step I'm taking,
Every move I make feels
Lost with no direction
My faith is shaking but I
Got to keep trying
♥ Got to keep my head held high

I have lost myself.

I have officially lost myself.
Therefore, I'm no longer who i am.
Out of balance, never will i feel the same again...
I'm lost in eternal sorrow and never coming back.

Goodbye,

I have drowned myself in too much fake happiness.
No longer going to endure that.
I'm letting the original me flow....
Not going to cover up anymore.

I will live in the fantasy of BREAKING DAWN,
the only way to decrease sorrow.
Hoping that i will never come out of the book to face such a cruel world.



I THOUGHT I KNEW THE WORLD,
I THOUGHT I KNEW MYSELF,
I THOUGHT I KNEW MY FRIENDS.
BUT I KNEW NOTHING AT ALL! )':

Sometime, we have to get lost to find ourselves.

BREAKKKKKING DA DAWNNNNNNNNN YO!
I have finished Eclipse! Starting my breaking dawn!

I feeling slightly better, so i decided to blog- only pictures.
Ignore some of the arrangements, cause my neck is starting to feel sore jus dragging pictures.
I managed to delete all the space between the picture, like yea! (:
I'm currently due to BREAKING DAWN, however still irritated by my sis com.
She's using the latest msn & she change the sound (you know that msn sound)
The sound when ever people online, tell me why keeps playing!
ARGHHHHHHHHHHHH!! D:
So god damn irritating!

Today isn't that bad as yesterday.
I only know, that god has proven my statement correct.
About avoiding someone.
Today was even worst, a MUCH nearer encounter!
Dang! It's like what is the problem?!
I'm already trying my best to let go, yet that encounters are getting closer?!
How the hell am i going to agree to my mindset?!

I'm already taking steps to walk away, however why do i need to smile & just face it?!
Isn't it totally unfair for me?!
It's like i'm doing my best, walking away is the hardest part.
Yet, god is putting me in such encounters...

After letting go,
I think i wont want to bother about Love and Love itself any longer.
I don't even know the meaning of love, what more make my life more horrible.

I want to be free as a bird!
Sigh, wishful thinking, i still do miss those time. )':

Oh whatever, i shall walk away slowly like that i won't feel so much pain.
Ok gotta watch my show, missed 12 mins!!! D':

TOODLES!





10 APRIL! (:

9TH APRIL! (:

7TH APRIL! (:

6TH OF APRIL! (:

4TH OF APRIL! (:

♥ Let it take me where it wants to go
Til you open the door, there's so much more
I've never seen it before
I was trying to fly but I couldn't find my wings
But you came along and you changed everything