Hopeless

I want to believe I am a dream catcher. Everything seems out of reach. Dreams aren't dreams, but a burden.

Without the basics where will I be. My expectations are now fears and pitch black. Life shouldn't be about failures or constant suicidal thoughts. It should be carefree, full of rainbows and butterflies. (It's not always the case but... you get what I mean)

Did I just lead myself in the deepest and darkest of pit holes?

I just want to pass, no repeating of modules and I am good. No more hoping for 2nd class. Just passes!