I know my come back post shouldn't be all sullen.
But I have to find a place to get things out of chest. If not, I have no idea how I am going to sleep tonight and head to school tomorrow or in the matter of fact work after school. Just having all stuck in me is so depressing and I can't even have a proper night rest. (Yes, body clock alarm at 4 in the morning despite sleeping at 12 - 2am) Yes, my life is messed up right now.
To be honest isn't but its just me. I am a wreak. I always let my nerves get the best of me. Sometimes I really believe I have anxiety issues and I am like almost an adult. I don't know how I can over come all this. I am too old for the crying shit too. I need to be tough.
I'll cut to the chase. I am freaking out on my next stage in life... university. I really hope I can get into one of the unis that I have applied else I really have no idea how I'd continue my life from there. Not to mention ... I shouldn't be so worries now but I have lost appetitie and what not. I will not have any idea what will happen to me later this year when I know I didn't get into any universities... that idea will freak me out big time now!
What ever it is I need to stop. I have to be strong and enjoy the now then looking in the future and freaking out over things that are not happening yet. That's me. See. I need to watch 'The Secret' to be back on track.
Phew, it's not a proper post but a ranting post of stuff that doesn't make sense don't you realize that? This like this happens to me. A LOT. I think I should blog more often. I feel so relieved now. (Wayyy better than my book or music distraction. Uh Oh!)
Leaving my place with a quote from ATL's sound...technically its sort of a love song but it sort of fit the emotions and feelings I am feeling for uni stuff. Yes, I AM ... D.E.S.P.E.R.A.T.E!
I'll be back soon. I hope. Busy. VERY.
p/s: I NEED A BUTTERFLYING BREAK. REALLY EXHAUSTED.
Oh, I can see now that all of these clouds
Are following me in my desperate endeavor
- Remembering Sunday; All Time Low
