HAPPY HALLOWEEN!

HAPPY HALLOWEEN FOLKS!! ^^

Not going to blog as frequent, too many things to do nowadays.
If I do have time, I shall blog.

Despair,

It feels as if I've loads on my chest to get it off.
I feel everything that is happening in school is really a weird turn.
Should I try looking for my teacher, to get it off my chest to make me feel better?
Should I consult my bestf(s)?

I feel like a tragedy & it's really uncomfortable.
I want to cry out all the sorrow, fear and pain.
I don't want to trouble my friends.
They themself have too much to handle.

I feel really tired with everything. :/

Seriously, I'm back to square one. T_T



WHERE CAN I GO FROM HERE?
I'm lost all over again.

Tragic Tragedy

Hitting back to the books.
School is starting tomorrow. ):
I hope I don't get the pre-school depression/stress/insomnia.
I'm not going to survive school with it.
However, they made things worst. (quarrelling) D:

I hope school goes smoothly. REALLY.

ahhhh, I've not been able to do my post for IMI's blog due to hectic weekend schedule.
KPOP CONCERT & OTHER STUFF. ):

A REALLY BAD START.

I hope I don't cry tomorrow, cause I just realised my tears are back. T_T

It's happening all over again



Trying to run away, find an escape from reality once more.
(Yes, living in TV series for the past few days)
I'm trying to devour my hate and change it to happiness.
It's still not happening.

School pressure, it's getting on me all over again.
I'm starting my question my ability too.
Am I able to handle it?
Am I strong enough to pull through?

I'm feeling like hell.
I need to find my meaning in life all over again.
This time, I'm trying not to confide in anyone.
Don't want to make it feel like I'm a tragedy in the making.



Silly emotions. :/

71 - Into The Fire

A BIG SHOUT OUT TO BBSGVIP FOR THE GALA PREMIERE OF 71 - INTO THE FIRE !!

I was evil enough to make Agnes to go for the movie with me. Ever since I saw a news about Singapore buying the film, I went BERSERK (as in fan crazy) ! Finally gotta catch it before it was in the cinema. Agnes has already watched it online and told me how amazing it was (without spoiling the plot). I was still hesitant. (I hate war movies, never liked the genre) Since T.O.P is inside, why not give this War Movie a try. I've also heard all the positive comments about this movie. So I signed up for the BBSGVIP event.

I GOTTA SURRENDER WITH MY BOTH HANDS UP! I've a confession to make. I'm loving the movie to bits (despite my major bias toward T.O.P)! x3 The respect I've to the 71 student soldiers, incredible! T.O.P acting was awesome as well. No doubt, as shown in the trailer! T.O.P of course was hot, as usual! xD (AGNES  KEPT SAYING SHAUI WHEN IT WAS T.O.P SCENE) HAHAHA. I felt the heart wrenching pain of the soldiers. But I realised how I can't cry as much as last time. (Agnes cried, and people who has already watch it said it was sad too) I guess I used too much tears during the beginning of the year.

Or perhaps, I'm emotional-less. >< Oh well, whatever it is... I still do feel the pain and sorrow but I just can't cry.

Conclusion for today's event: I really love this movie. First and ever war film that has caught my eyes. ^^  I love that hottie above! Simply amazing hot and charismatic T.O.P!! With this movie, I can't wait to see him power rap this Saturday!! See YOU this Saturday hottie!! x3

Now I shall end my post as well.
Annyeong people! ^^

Wishful thinking, probably mindless dreaming

Dark days approaching

The picture speaks all,

Speak Now

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Try asking me questions, but this won't last long.
I created it for fun, if I get sick of it, I'll remove the account.
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Toodles,

We can't tell

I guess this is the unwilling to go back to school syndrome all over again.
Feeling like crap, with all that disgusting emotions that  I wish I do not have.
Sigh, when's all this emotions going to end?

I CAN'T TAKE IT ANYMORE!

SCREW LIFE ONCE MORE! ):

Is It Love or Just a craving

I am really inspired to do this entry since I had this little chat with SASA on twitter since yesterday till today.

It started because I watched Koizora, the movie on YouTube yesterday evening. I totally envy Mika for having such a sweet guy - even willing to protect her at all cost. He's just so amazing. However, the ending is just too horrible for an awesome couple like them. The cruel reality of sickness, sighs. I've also realised, I don't want to be involved in a relationship. I just want to have a boyfriend who cares for me, rather. I can name 1000 reasons to why I don't want to be in one. Partially, the after effects of being involved emotional is too hard to handle, as you can see from KOIZORA.
I'm so off the hook now. Done with looking for love, thinking that I'll get mine real soon if I look hard enough and believing as well. Love is just another thing that I'll say ranked 3rd in my life. For now I'll just wait till I've found my Hiro. The guy who is willing to do anything to protect you, and just treats you really well. Ha ha, but after all such stories only happens once in a lifetime. Someday I'll believe in love, believe there's an another guy as thoughtful as Hiro. But this time round may the story be not as depressing as KOIZARO.

I'm a girl after all, who doesn't wish for a happily-ever-after?

We all do.


p/s: Which couple is a sweeter couple?
(I like the Koizara movie one though, but the drama one is cute)

The Movie ^^

The Drama (:

Run, run, run

I woke up REALLY early in the morning on a Saturday,
it was because I was asked by my friend to go and help out for an event. (helping by earning cash as well). Met up with Claudia, Li & Lau at the 7eleven nearest to bss. Took a cab down to Macritchie. I was kinda reluctant to go, cause I didn't get enough sleep the night before. D: Reach the meeting place, got our tees and went to change.

After changing, we stood there waiting for them to allocate our jobs to us. Briefing, Bused to the place we gotta go, rot & did our job. It was super boring when there wasn't any runners. Met up with the other 2 and head back to boon keng. Claudia had to leave early. Cabbed 3 times on that day. I did have fun, and a rather interesting experience.

My brain is 1/2 dead. I wanna watch more dramas. Maybe I might watch Koizora's drama since I watched the movie today.

Bye.

Weekends, Weekdays

" Even though we no longer see each other, we still anticapate such gatherings with each other. "

Last week weekend & this week, I've been rather busy. Have been catching up with loads of my best pals I've know through out the years of my life. There are the groups of people that have been through thick and thin with me. Thanks so much for adding colours into my life. Holidays are great for gatherings & catching up with these awesome people!



The babes from 'The Seven' ( agnes li not in picture D: )
We went to Teo Heng last sat. Sang songs - rewind back with songs that are not called "oldies". Went kpop frenzy. Shopping @ city plaza. Dinner at my house. Made Big Bang's present. More pictures on my facebook. ^^




My primary school BFFs.
First ever experience hanging with 2 couples (yea, I broke my record). Kinda awkward, but it was rather fun cause I've not met this babes for ages! Went to Bugis - chat with yy. Parkway - met yvette, her bf & yy's bf. Dinner. Arcade. Thanks YY for the ice cream treat & KEN for the koi! (:



My fellow BSS Guides
Went Kbox with the girls. Dinner. Esplanade. Walked to Marina Bay Sands and were being chased off. D: I've not met them for a long time. We used to hang out every friday evening, and yes I still miss those times. Yays to the fact that we MIGHT be meeting next tuesday/friday for picnic at Marina Barrage! ^^


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I've done simple sum ups of the events.
More pictures are available on my fb page as usual.

I shall end my post here.
Ciaos peeps.

Am I as strong as I think I am?

Back to thinking what is life to me all over again.
Not forgetting that emotions that comes with it.
However this time I can't cry.

I wish I'm able to cry a river.
At least I wouldn't feel like I'm suffocating.

Why am I dying inside?