Last post for 2011

Hey folks what are you doing this news year eve???

I believe people are every out preparing to countdown later tonight. Well, as for me I'm home going to hit the bed early tonight with hopes of 2012 being a good year. I guess I am too old for the crowds and all that partying teens my age will enjoy. My life is a bore eh? Anyway, this post is to sum up all the ups and downs faced in 2011, my reflection of 2011 and my thoughts.

2011 definitely had all it's drama. Me... trying to re-adapt to my school life (term based), school work, made new friends, speaking to strangers, worked a whole month, etc. This year's drama was way more than all the years I have ever seen. But I am glad because of such dramas, my family has come closer. I am also glad that me and my sis are closer too, but we still do quarrel like sure crazy. People say problems faced are what make people grow. I know I don't seem to make any sense cause I not 100% focused due to using brain cells to create the photo collage. :X

Anw, I hope 2012 will be a great year for my loved ones and best friends, more joy, no more sorrow and drama, good results, good health and fortune. Everyone living in peace and harmony. And oh yes! Good health to all!!!

Before I end, here is my 2012 resolution:
- do well in school (work harder)
- sleep early, wake up early
- LOSE SOME WEIGHT!
- be more cheerful during school days
- mingle with people, instead of being sooo introvert
- hang out with my relatives more often
- go overseas *ahem* USA baby~
(that's roughly all I can think of for now, I believe I'll have more to add on as the time goes by :P)

[newly added on 020112]
- be who I really am and not typical

Alright, everyone have a great end to 2011 and an awesome start to 2012.

Me signing off to rest my tired brain and wake early for an awesome time with my lovely peeps to have an amazing start to my 2012!

MERRY X'MAS!

Merry X'mas folks! 

This is a little something I did using Flash and Photoshop. It is inspired by Google's doodle.

Today's my sis birthday as well! HAPPY BIRTHDAY SIS! (:

I'm keeping the post short, due to the flu I caught over the past few days T_T  AND a long bus day tomorrow so ending I'll end the post here.

NEW LAYOUT FOR 2012!

Yes this is the new layout, some issues here and there, but I think I'll do the changes another day.

I am having a serious shoulder ache right now!

So I am off to watch PSYCH! :D

We are young

LOVING THIS SONG FROM GLEE!!!

I know I had a hard time in sem 2.2 term A, but I am still being optimistic about on everything and go with my flow and stop trying so hard as well. Just going to end the remaining 23 days of 2011 with this attitude.

So if by the time the bar closes and you feel like falling down, I’ll carry you home tonight...

Cuteness overload!

PHONE COMING SOON IN 2012...

So for now leave you with my cover cuteness

(yes, I bought this without my phone first cause its so darn cute to resist!)

The bigger you are the harder you fall.

Thanks KARMIN for this awesome song.
Yes I didn't share it the other time cause I only find the song catchy, but now ... THE LYRICS ARE LIKE GAH AMAZING! Hahah, KISS MY OH MY GAH! xD




" You think you're the star of the show, but I'm about to let you know I'm here to crash your party. You're so misunderstood, cause you're so complex. And you claim you're so low key Well you coulda fooled me, mister TMZ! "

"THERE'S NO ROOM IN MY LIFE FOR AN EGO YOUR SIZE!"

dying soon

NIGHTMARE TOMORROW. INP PRACIAL TEST. I'M SO FREAKING DOOMED!!! T_T
I TOTALLY FORGOT EVERY THING ABOUT PROGRAMMING.

JUST HOPE TO PASS. PLEASE GODS!!!
HELP ME TO JUST GET A PASSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS!!

Jar of hearts

人生的意义去了哪裡？

It's too late now to put out the fire...

我想念那个有自信的我...

现在的我是不是很令人讨厌？

好希望那个真正快乐的我能回来...

_l_

WHAT SHIT!!!

THE MORE OPTIMISTIC THE MORE FUCK UP IT GETS. 

FORGET  ABOUT ME TRYING TO CHANGE EVERYTHING, I'M NO LONGER BEING OPTIMISTIC AND BACK TO BEING EMO AND PESSIMISTIC ALL OVER AGAIN. PFFFFFT!!!!


!#$@#$@#$@#$@#$@#$@# @#$@$^%^*(&^*!@#!#&^$^*(&()&%^*$%^@#$

ASDSFDHWETWRWEFTRWETRWEVFASDGJAKN XCWPWEI!!!

I almost lost it

I forgot my purpose in life.   I left myself rotting in my own denial, finding all ways to escape the issues and things I have to do.T_T I really hate my life right now. Escaping reality, hiding at home from the outside world. Yes even going to school is a chore and makes me feel like tearing badly. I have no motivation to move towards my target I am looking for but slacking and complaining, finding all the excuses to lay off everything I have to do.

The picture ABOVE gave me a wake up call.

I am doing it for myself and my family. I don't want to go through the 6 years of hell and the horrible look down from people. I am smart than people think I am. I can do it despite those people are in university in some foreign country. YOU CAN BE LIKE THEM. Just another 4 more week and 2 weeks of holidays till the next 8 weeks to endure. YOU CAN DO THIS!!!

So... STOP SCREWING YOUR LIFE UP LORRAINE!!! BLOODY WAKE UP.

Stormy sky

I knew it, somethings are too good to be true.
I shouldn't mention it at all.
It's like a curse.
I can get back up even though life is such a bitch to me.
I am Invincible! 
Yes, no one is ever going to pull me down, even my own emo-ness.
Is just another less than 1 and 1/2 years.
I CAN, I WILL, I MUST DO THIS.
Hopefully hello australia for further studies after a Diploma.



THANK GOD TOMORROW'S FRIDAYYYY! (:

ok bye.

I screwed my life.

STOP PROCRASTINATING.

Damn, good bye my dear grades at the rate I am going. 

Remember the good times,

First and foremost...

CONGRATULATIONS TO THE BOYS (my dearest B TO THE I TO THE G, B TO THE A.N.G = BIG BANG YO!) FOR WINNING Best Worldwide Category AT THE MTV EMA!!

11.06.11 THE BOYS BACK ON STAGE AS 5 AFTER THE DIFFICULTY FACED!

I am only here for this ...................................

Have been inspired by some image congratulating the boys on their MTV GMA win. I guess this is what you can say when you are happy you will be inspired and you do the best things. (Sorry boys, I didn't do a congraulation picture of you guys based on your EMA picture.)

So yeps, I did this wallpaper that includes a definition of  BEST FRIEND, but I changed it to FRIENDS! (: Hope my lovely 7! love this little something something I made to cheer on everyone who is feeling in the 7! I am also going to share the song that I supposedly want to keep for a home-made video collage, but oh well since I made this wallpaper.. I am going to share it now. (:

Okie dokie, ending here.

NIGHTS YA'LL!

back to back

In life the good things comes in little packages,

I have been pretty depressed lately. In fact super depressed and a total wreak, escaping from everything in the world including meeting my friends.

Since Halloween was yesterday in Singapore, 2 of my besties and I made a little small gift for them. Met them when they return back from their mini gathering. After that I walked back with them and we chat a bit on my current miserable life. Thanks for opening up another path for me. (:

Besides that I know I cried like the showers yesterday before school and mummy was home. I didn't manage to see her until later in the evening. So she gave me a hug which I needed the most. At that moment I felt so enlightened, cause that day I really needed a hug from someone. But I also know she felt sad seeing me suffer like that.

Hence an inspired note to god:

Although since birth I have been suffering so much, because of my previous karma. But  despite all this suffering you gave me, you still left me a supportive and loving family and a group of amazing friends. Thank god for blessing me with these people in my life. I love all of them dearlyyyyy!!(':

Yep, So this sums up my October in school. What I can say it is sort of a great ending to my horrid month with the shower of love. Please maintain this kind of relationship with me November.

The pain,

When will it all go away ....

I am just so emotional and depressed ....

I have something stuck inside of me ....

The feeling is just so uncomfortable ....

I really have horrible thoughts.

It's WORST this time.

1000% Worst.  

Why hold on?

I feel like an idiot, fool and all the other words that describes someone who have the intelligence of 0.

School made me feel so diminished. The modules I am doing are nothing I expected and are really horrible. I can't do the simplest thing too. I feel like going up my dreams of going to a university because of the hardship I am facing now. Some how I think I made the wrong choice. Maybe I should be doing something else. Why poly life is not smooth sailing for me??? Always so much obstacles....

Life sucks. I hate my life.

Do something about it,

I have had loads of anxieties today.

And what I attended today got me thinking, if I don't change who will? I mean it's not like I can change school or anything every time I feel like crap. Endure all this shit now and after graduating, start a fresh and go to the place I wanna go and enjoy everything over there. For now I have to stop whining and DO THE CHANGE. Life will be horrible if nothing is done.

Haha. I know myself very well. If I can say this now means another day I can start swearing and cursing how horrible school can get. But well I have to take things slow and try first, else who will? So whatever it is. Everything will be fine.

I believe I can, I will be able to do it and I must do this!!!

ARGHHHHH!! WHO AM I KIDDING?!?!

I TOTALLY HAVE NO APPETITE AND THOUGHTS ARE RUNNING WILD.
Oh damn, school depression is back....

I AM SO DOOMED. ):

Don't let me down,

HELL SCHOOL STARTS ON MONDAY!!!

So clearly I am here to blog before school starts. (Damn, have not made a new wallpaper and new blog layout!)

I've been rather lazy and keep pushing back the post I was suppose to blog last week for my steamboat even. But since school is about to start I am here to unleash all the freaking anxieties and fear that will occur on the very first day of school (see even thinking about it and typing it out give me the jitters and I have the sweaty palms, @#%@$%).

School is going to be extreme when school starts. It seems like a war. Really wish all this could end. I also have to work really hard to get my grades up and yet again the fear of doing badly sucks. What are the odds of me doing well again ever since the very one semster!! And I am afraid it will repeat again and I am sure of it!!!!!!!!!  My grades are totally like a roller coaster!!! And yes talking about school means..... FUCK MY LIFE. SCHOOL SUCKS. HATE SCHOOL. STRESS. DEPRESSIONNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! FUCK FUCK FUCK. See how annoyed I am with school?!?! Please god, make this up coming semester a good one and I need your blessing. REALLY NEED TO.

Anw, had a great time with my awesome buddies. Look at the pictures and you guessed it! Hahaha. I also hung out with them this week, Wednesday, for some discussion on facebook. Huiting and Cally also donated blood on the same day after the event. I also manged to eat my awesome chilli cheese fries. What a meaningful and sweet day.

Met Cally on a Thursday, accompany her for a bit of shopping spree time. Damn she made me spend on stationary which I have not splurge on it in ages. The elmo stuff is just so cute, I couldn't resist. So here I am with 3 elmo pens and 2 elmo paper clips (one of the pen and clip was bought today).

Today was also great. Woke up pretty early, as early as 7 am. Breakfast at some restaurant, dim sums! Craving it for ages! Got my hair cut, so less burden on me. Get some stationary and draw string bag to put charger stuff.  I totally should wake up early go out and come back early. It totally beats waking up late and going out late.

Nough said, here are the pictures.

p/s: I'll be back once in awhile but not as often. After all, school is hell and I guess when I am feel like shit I'll be back here venting every single shit I am going through. If I have an awesome event I might blog. But see the lazy procrastinating bug in me, high doubt it.



The steamboat before school starts for the rest of the guys:

more pictures are available on my facebook.


Discussion and blood donation day:

Random stuff :

BYEEEEEE!!! 

Just a thought...

Back in those days (We were sec 3)...

Now, currently, 2011....

Look how time flies, we've know each other for 7 years and counting. Soon all of us will turn 20, have some other half we'll tell secrets too, and other stuff needless for me to say. I hope this friendship can go beyond the 10 years and more, taking out birthday cards, pictures and laugh at how silly and crazy our youth had been. May god bless you all and those who do not have another half yet find theirs. SO GLAD I HAVE THESE AWESOME GUYS AS BUDDIES!!! <3

Paper Heart

Holiday is ending really soon...

another one week to go *sighs*

Have been trying to make the reminding days of the holiday great! What did I do ever since the last day of work????

MONDAY:

JB trip with Agnes, Cally, Her mum, Claudia, My dad. It rain early in the morning. So went over to JB with wet shoes ): Oh yea, in JB I totally walked till my legs are about to break!! We went to many many many different places and they bought so many things. OMG. Big bags and small bags. Especially Agnes, she bought loads of stuff. I just erm... can't seem to find anything that I like so yea, didn't buy much. Hahah. (: Claudia, my dad and I went back to sg first. While Agnes, Cally and her mum went back later. (:

Here are the pictures:

TUESDAY:
Another wet day, but not as wet as Monday. Went to the zoo with my girlfriends. Our free tickets became .....  ): So we paid to get it. Thank god, we paid a lesser price to get in. Pictures were mostly taken by Claudia. Another day of walking, my leg hurt like hell this time round. Idk why but I was a hungry monster like whole of that day. No kid. A picture even proved it! We had dinner after zoo and spend a pretty long time trying to figure out someone's feet in a picture. HAHA. What a day. We also reminisced over Agnes Lau's pictures of school she took in 2007 - 2009. So here is some great news gonna share some of my secondary school memories with you guys!!! First of with the Zoo pictures....

Old school days picture:

Ok me signing off~ 

Bye!