Ride.Or.Die.

WELL, HELLO RECESS WEEK.

(So much has happened in the past few weeks)

This is why I am so chirpy today! This week is for insane mugging and panick mode. Because 6 weeks later is Sem 1 Finals! So behind all my happiness is my fear and sorrows. School so far is a killer and nothing is going as expected. I am so closed to raising my white flag and surrender to fate.

Sometimes such things are easier said then done. So I vow to push on and continues this shit. Cause sometimes isn't only about you but those who care about you as well.

I don't ask for much (definitely not as HIGH as what I hoped for in poly) passing all my modules will be the best present ever! So please this simple request is all that I ask for.

Please.let.me.pass.

I gotta sleep and wake up real early tomorrow. Gotta throw in 110% in to my education. Hopefully possible.

Nights world. 

Carry on... or not...

Am I the only one struggling to understand? Cause it feels like I am the only one who do not understand anything that is going on. I feel so inferior and depressed. Being at the bottom of the bell curve is worrisome. I know I have been slacking off, trying to find excuses to avoid doing what I am suppose to do. Avoiding is all I can do now, because not knowing a single thing is soooo discouraging. But I think I am partly complacent. I do fear repeating of modules, but I am just not as motivated as I used to be.

I miss being efficient and productive.

I have finally reached the end of the tunnel that I am not sure where to go....



I realised, nothing good comes out from me and my thoughts when I am alone. So this post is oblivious because I am alone in the hall right now. 

The sound of an old guitar is saving you from sinking

"Life is always hard. 

Dry your eyes, dry your eyes

Don’t be afraid."

I have been wanting to post for the longest time but I have been EXTREMELY BUSY.

My life in uni has started for 3 weeks and now heading for the 4th. It's been pretty shitty academic wise but the course peeps are not that bad. Hall is really really convenient! No regrets about that! Besides that I have opened up quite a bit. However, somehow I find myself falling back into being that naive person and trusting anyone just in that instant you are friendly  with me. I really should keep an eye, cause you never will know...

I realised my stress level has hit an all time high and it's mentally wearing me out. I have kept up an facade for far too long and it's kinda driving me insane. Not only that, I have been having constant headaches when ever I'm feeling so stressed. I also have the tendency to express my anger like crazy at home. Uni really kinda turn my world upside down and out of it course! If this continues I really don't know how to do this anymore.

Please god! I need your bless to pull through 3 years of hell. I really don't want to let anyone down... ):

I WILL CONTINUE PRAYING AND HOPING! Alright gotta end here cause my head is starting to hurt again!