Try to fix me

"And I had the week that came from hell

And yes I know that you can tell"

I know I should be spending my time mugging for the finals right now but somethings aren't just as easy. I can't get shit into my brain and I have no idea how I am I going to go for the exams tomorrow. Can I simply get an MC for the exams take a break off school and restart in year 2014 as a year 2 student all over again? Somethings aren't as simple as that.

Sometimes what we get isn't what we are looking for after all. I feel so much pain and sorrow I really don't know what to do about it. Now I know I am back to that little girl who let down her whole world. I worked so hard to get to where I am but why do I feel so drained and not motivated. Miracles, what are they? I don't even they they exist in my life any more. I am as hopeless as I can be but life isn't going the way it should be.

I wanna end all my misery. I want to end it all....

Anxieties and fear

EXAMS ARE REALLY NEAR! I have 10 more days till the first one which I am bound to fail for sure!I never realised how much shit I don't know and the content is overwhelming which is killing me sooo bad. God of exam bell curve, please let me pass all modules. I promise you, next semester I will work harder! OH PLEASE! ):

Now my head is in a whirlwind and I can't effing study cause I'm worrying my ass over things that aren't happening just yet. And if this semester isn't working out... Next semester I don't know how I am going to pull myself out of this dark hole.

PLEASE.I.JUST.WANNA.PASS.

*i bet a trillion this post doesn't make any sense, but a girl needs a place to rant!