The pain,

When will it all go away ....

I am just so emotional and depressed ....

I have something stuck inside of me ....

The feeling is just so uncomfortable ....

I really have horrible thoughts.

It's WORST this time.

1000% Worst.  

Why hold on?

I feel like an idiot, fool and all the other words that describes someone who have the intelligence of 0.

School made me feel so diminished. The modules I am doing are nothing I expected and are really horrible. I can't do the simplest thing too. I feel like going up my dreams of going to a university because of the hardship I am facing now. Some how I think I made the wrong choice. Maybe I should be doing something else. Why poly life is not smooth sailing for me??? Always so much obstacles....

Life sucks. I hate my life.

Do something about it,

I have had loads of anxieties today.

And what I attended today got me thinking, if I don't change who will? I mean it's not like I can change school or anything every time I feel like crap. Endure all this shit now and after graduating, start a fresh and go to the place I wanna go and enjoy everything over there. For now I have to stop whining and DO THE CHANGE. Life will be horrible if nothing is done.

Haha. I know myself very well. If I can say this now means another day I can start swearing and cursing how horrible school can get. But well I have to take things slow and try first, else who will? So whatever it is. Everything will be fine.

I believe I can, I will be able to do it and I must do this!!!

ARGHHHHH!! WHO AM I KIDDING?!?!

I TOTALLY HAVE NO APPETITE AND THOUGHTS ARE RUNNING WILD.
Oh damn, school depression is back....

I AM SO DOOMED. ):

Don't let me down,

HELL SCHOOL STARTS ON MONDAY!!!

So clearly I am here to blog before school starts. (Damn, have not made a new wallpaper and new blog layout!)

I've been rather lazy and keep pushing back the post I was suppose to blog last week for my steamboat even. But since school is about to start I am here to unleash all the freaking anxieties and fear that will occur on the very first day of school (see even thinking about it and typing it out give me the jitters and I have the sweaty palms, @#%@$%).

School is going to be extreme when school starts. It seems like a war. Really wish all this could end. I also have to work really hard to get my grades up and yet again the fear of doing badly sucks. What are the odds of me doing well again ever since the very one semster!! And I am afraid it will repeat again and I am sure of it!!!!!!!!!  My grades are totally like a roller coaster!!! And yes talking about school means..... FUCK MY LIFE. SCHOOL SUCKS. HATE SCHOOL. STRESS. DEPRESSIONNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! FUCK FUCK FUCK. See how annoyed I am with school?!?! Please god, make this up coming semester a good one and I need your blessing. REALLY NEED TO.

Anw, had a great time with my awesome buddies. Look at the pictures and you guessed it! Hahaha. I also hung out with them this week, Wednesday, for some discussion on facebook. Huiting and Cally also donated blood on the same day after the event. I also manged to eat my awesome chilli cheese fries. What a meaningful and sweet day.

Met Cally on a Thursday, accompany her for a bit of shopping spree time. Damn she made me spend on stationary which I have not splurge on it in ages. The elmo stuff is just so cute, I couldn't resist. So here I am with 3 elmo pens and 2 elmo paper clips (one of the pen and clip was bought today).

Today was also great. Woke up pretty early, as early as 7 am. Breakfast at some restaurant, dim sums! Craving it for ages! Got my hair cut, so less burden on me. Get some stationary and draw string bag to put charger stuff.  I totally should wake up early go out and come back early. It totally beats waking up late and going out late.

Nough said, here are the pictures.

p/s: I'll be back once in awhile but not as often. After all, school is hell and I guess when I am feel like shit I'll be back here venting every single shit I am going through. If I have an awesome event I might blog. But see the lazy procrastinating bug in me, high doubt it.



The steamboat before school starts for the rest of the guys:

more pictures are available on my facebook.


Discussion and blood donation day:

Random stuff :

BYEEEEEE!!! 

Just a thought...

Back in those days (We were sec 3)...

Now, currently, 2011....

Look how time flies, we've know each other for 7 years and counting. Soon all of us will turn 20, have some other half we'll tell secrets too, and other stuff needless for me to say. I hope this friendship can go beyond the 10 years and more, taking out birthday cards, pictures and laugh at how silly and crazy our youth had been. May god bless you all and those who do not have another half yet find theirs. SO GLAD I HAVE THESE AWESOME GUYS AS BUDDIES!!! <3

Paper Heart

Holiday is ending really soon...

another one week to go *sighs*

Have been trying to make the reminding days of the holiday great! What did I do ever since the last day of work????

MONDAY:

JB trip with Agnes, Cally, Her mum, Claudia, My dad. It rain early in the morning. So went over to JB with wet shoes ): Oh yea, in JB I totally walked till my legs are about to break!! We went to many many many different places and they bought so many things. OMG. Big bags and small bags. Especially Agnes, she bought loads of stuff. I just erm... can't seem to find anything that I like so yea, didn't buy much. Hahah. (: Claudia, my dad and I went back to sg first. While Agnes, Cally and her mum went back later. (:

Here are the pictures:

TUESDAY:
Another wet day, but not as wet as Monday. Went to the zoo with my girlfriends. Our free tickets became .....  ): So we paid to get it. Thank god, we paid a lesser price to get in. Pictures were mostly taken by Claudia. Another day of walking, my leg hurt like hell this time round. Idk why but I was a hungry monster like whole of that day. No kid. A picture even proved it! We had dinner after zoo and spend a pretty long time trying to figure out someone's feet in a picture. HAHA. What a day. We also reminisced over Agnes Lau's pictures of school she took in 2007 - 2009. So here is some great news gonna share some of my secondary school memories with you guys!!! First of with the Zoo pictures....

Old school days picture:

Ok me signing off~ 

Bye!