My life is going downhill once more...

Just the month of February, it's leaving me breathless..

I really exhausted, i can't even concentrate during my maths tuition. I felt as if I knew all the relevant thing, however it also felt as if i don't know anything. ARGHHHHH! This sucks! I'm still left clinging on to the remaining F&N coursework.

I think I'm stressed out!

I stayed at home all day, trying my best to have some engagement with my maths work. All i know is that i found myself gorging down food the whole day. ): I can't seem to give my undivided attention to my assessment books. ): Sigh, i think I'm having the pessimistic thinking all over once more.

Idk...

I'm just too exhausted to think about it further.

Bye.

feeling tranquil..

Tranquil
adjective
1 a: free from agitation of mind or spirit <a tranquil self-assurance>
b: free from disturbance or turmoil

Yeps, you got it! I'm feeling tranquil at the moment. I just want my mind off everything that will make me feel irritated, enraged, boiling in anger, sorrowful and what so ever. The whole point of blogging today is replying tags, simple enough? My mind is BLANK! Nothing seems to be right today, i feel like I'm dreaming nothing is real. Most importantly, I'm dreading every part of life now, how perfect! :/ Dang! OK, here are the replies...

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Sighs, i have no idea what I'm feeling now. I'm feeling really restless, i feel as if there are tons of emotions inside me waiting to erupt! I feel so stuffy, can't even catch my breath. Sigh, i don't even know what I'm doing. I feel so... arghhhh! I'm exhausted but unwilling to rest, I'm in a foul mood thinking about some random stuff, I'm down just reminiscing about the past and I'm feeling impatient for the arrival of my NANO. What's more? I think it must be the love songs & the emo songs. Idk.. i feel so mixed up. Why? Why? Why? I feel livid just seeing you now a days. Way worst than what i felt on the 2ND day of the incident. When ever i see you now i just feel pissed, irritated, agitated, spitting mad & furious. I went screaming like crazy just even seeing a picture.

What's the case? Maybe cause it was a unhealable scar, something that hurt me way too deep. Causing a flash back and hallucination, and it may cause such side effects. Perhaps i gave in too much, way beyond what you gave me. Like what feng said, maybe because i'm too emotionally attached (in other words I _ _ _ _ for you head over heels) to it, that emotion, that i'm still angry with you. (the anger is weird, i forgive & forget, however i can hate you once more the next day) IDK, i think it has got to be with the NOSTALGIA! Idk, or perhaps, i'm just hating the world and everything too much till i hate you the way like i hate the world. Final conclusion, I GOT THE LOVE BIOPOLAR! X= Ya ya, as if. idk and i want to stop here...

OK, ending my misery here.

TOODLES!

TAG REPLIES:

BlurStar =): hellos! Huh? Chim words? Are you sure? I don't think so. :/

luminn: Miss your friends? I really do miss you! )':

QIWEI: Qiqi, thanks for you love, i love you too! (:

Hazel: you want present? O_0? btw, thanks for tagging. (:

BlurStar =): maybe that day, your brain is not working straight. X=

minhui: ooo ic, X= haahs~ ooo ok, thanks! (:

Jaslyn♥: ooo ic, hahas~ than did they envy you? HAHA! x=

luminn: it has been a week & i only replying you now. X= sorry, yea.. that day was the bomb! (: HAHAS, yeps, if only we can ton. ): that will be cool, and the atmosphere is cool too! (: LOVE YA TOO! (:

ïmpεrfëctsàndy: hahas~ OK! Must go out & take tons of pictures with you. You used to be my cam whoring partner & I'm missing you tons! ):

*p/s: now whatever you tag, will be replied on FRIDAYS!

♥ 背對背地坐著 我們用沉默在拉扯
看誰的淚先輸掉拔河

Nostalgia? Why is that so?

Tell me if time should make a change...
Then why do I feel the same?
*reply tags after dinner..

I am having a nostalgia. Not a simple but a serious nostalgia! God damn it! :/ I seem to be having that feeling for almost every single thing that I'm doing currently. I missing all those things that i did in the past, and for all the time in BSS i find that sec 3 is the best so far. Although there is separation with my besties! I still miss those days, i miss last year (removing the quarrels), I'm missing tons of stuff. That feeling ain't great. Cause i'm having a sudden urge to go back in time (which is fairly impossible). I'm feeling weary as well, tired of my school work, i don't even seem having the mood to study for tomorrow's exam.

Dang, my English teacher talked about out papers & it's not gonna be good. Sigh, at least I'm feeling happy now. I bought my gatchapon stuff & my all time wanted IPOD NANO (RED)- shipment will only arrive on 030309. ): And i forked out $100 0n my own just to get it. Well, better than snatching my sis ipod everyday & i think she will blast at me one day. X= I'm so jovial now! However, the joyous occasion still contains a stinging bit of unhappiness, who will ever bother about that?? Haha, i will just carry on the jovial me. (:

I'm so happyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy! I'm flying on cloud 6 and in 7 heaven! TODAY IS A JUBILANT DAY! (: yeah yeah yeah! Can't wait for 030309 to get my IPOD, but enduring the stress in studying for COMMON TEST. Bummersssss.....

Well, better get started with what ever i needa do.

Later dinner outside as well.

One day
You will wake up
With nothing but "you're sorry"
And someday
You will get back
Everything you gave me
Yesterday was that night...

Blow the candles out
Looks like a solo tonight
I'm beginning to see the light
Blow the candles out
Looks like a solo tonight
♥ But I think I'll be alright

我卷着身体缩成一个圈 像一个句点

Euphoric.

adjective

exaggerated feeling of well-being or elation

I felt that, however not the exaggerated way. X=
I feeling really tired, i slept at around 4-6.50 going to 7pm just now, after my tuition. I will be having tuition later from 8.30 till 10.30pm. So exhausting. ):

I pull through yesterday! (: First experience of studying for many consecutive hours. I have my mind wonder around a bit, but at least i finished my work & i'm happy with that! Talking about work i still not done with my english tuition work! Dang! ): Anyway, yesterday after the "lesson in school" or whatever it's called & my private tuition, met up with LXY & LKF. Slack.. than did ridiucles crapping. Well, you want to see the funny parts go to XINYI'S BLOG.

Too exhausted to eleborate futher (ytd was just mainly slacking purpose) & i have to chiong my SUMMARY & ESSAY! ): I'm currently suffering as well. ): I'm feeling major uncomfort in me! ): LXY you should know... major siansation! :/ Oh well, i will reply tags soon. JUST TAG MORE OFTEN YEA! THANKS!

Bye, homework-ing in progress! (:

*p/s: i think i will not be blogging until friday, i guess, cause COMMON TEST YOU SEE!

♥ I can't tell if I am lost or found
Cause I'm livin' in a dream and I don't wanna wake up!
And I don't know how to let you in or let you go

Love Bipolar?

This year seems to be way beyond fast, but VERY FAST!
248 more days till 'O' level English paper, this means the start of the rest! ):
Bummers....

Common test is starting next week, i wonder whether if my extra time is being approved by MOE? They better... Anyway, I'm starting to dread the weekends. Really hectic, busy studying and tuition's and not forgetting coursework to complete. :/ Dang! I sort of have the dates for 'O's. I'm really exhausted, fatigue, lethargic and i don't feel like moving any bit. I thought weekends i will be able to rest. I'm assigned with TONS of TUITIONS! So skipping guides thinking day tomorrow.

I currently bored! ): Sis wont be back till her Japanese lessons is over. I think sc's schedules are wayyyyyy wayyyyy more hectic then bs. Well, sometime my work seems lesser than my sis and she's freaking like sec 2! ZOMG! Well, she's a smart ass while I'm the total opposite! So i want her to do well and not follow me. I regret my actions, if i studied way harder than i did i will be in sc and maybe in poly now. Oh whatever, see being alone at home has it consequences. I have to settle my own dinner! ):

I going to give study a rest today, i shall have an official start tomorrow. Going back to school and such for "tuition" as well as home tuition. So yea, hectic! OK, ending my crap....

TOODLES!

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Went out just now to have a dinner date with my "LOVER", Lim Erxing!
We met around 5+ and headed to PS and we went to burger king to eat our dinner. While deciding what to eat, we saw... LUMINNNNNN!! (: We didn't planned to meet her, i was talking to xy and she turned and saw lumin! ZOMG! So shocked! Singapore is really small! X= HAHAS!

She asked us to sit the table beside her. She went out with a group of friends. So it was pretty weird at first. Soon xy and i were used to it.


They were pretty hilarious! And for a bunch of friends, they are really full of "nonsense"! X= Some how they made my day. (: 2 of them left while lumin, 2 of her other friends, xy and i headed down to vivo to walk around. Went to toy 'r' us (gatchpon!) and Ben & Jerry's (bye bye $$). Walked around awhile before heading up stairs to the play pool, the 3rd level.

-_-lll many couples were like there. DANG! We chatted with her friends as if we knew them for pretty long. ZOMG! And what amuse me is that i was willing to spill the beans & had tons of fun with them. I might feel guilty at first, but that anguished after awhile. I never regretted it, cause i sort of made friends. I was shy at first but soon it disappeared and i chatted to them like how i talk to lkf. hahas~ cool. IT'S ALL FATE! (:




HAD SO MUCH FUN! However, tomorrow's the hard part. Enduring the boredom in doing my english & science. Hopefully lkf is willing to slack tomorrow & pasta mania! HEHES! Well, i'm happy today and i will have energy to mug tomorrow! (: TODAY WAS A DAY WORTH WHILE, HOWEVER TIME SEEMS TO PAST EVEN FASTER WITH FUN LINGERING AROUND. ): Bummerrrrrrs.... ):

I got to go and freshen up & rest.
Tomorrow's gonna be a longggggggggg day ahead!
So sad...


*p/s: LUMIN, MEET UP SOON YEA! (:












You took a hammer to these walls,
Dragged the memories down the hall,
Packed your bags and walked away.
There was nothing I could say.
And when you slammed the front door shut,
A lot of others opened up,
So did my eyes so I could see
♥ That you never were the best for me.

为什么莫名有种矛盾的情绪?

FINALLY! 1 free day, a day's break.

(but still, i have tuition homework & coursework that i have to do)

Today's Chinese tuition was canceled due to the student counsellor meeting. However, i have no idea why there was a sudden change. Well, it's alright. Hopefully tomorrow's tuition will be relaxing. Oral again please. X: The past few days i was bombed with tons of homework, f&n test to study as well as tuition. I'm lacking of rest! I intend to sleep at 11pm today and no later. I have lost too much rest, and feeling fatigue & lethargic! How hectic can my schedules get? It's causing much misery to the time spent at home!

Well, pretty much of that can be answered! VERY VERY SOON this life of mine = no life & i left to bond with my books!! ): Bummers... I'm starting to feel tried in the mist of my lessons. If this continues, idk how will i be able to cope. Anyway, my entries will forever be like about studies never the interesting stuff. School is major boring, no life. So all i can blog is revolved around the same topic. Oh! I want to take this opportunity to ask people around me to cheer up. ( Major suay-ness or what?! All i know that it seems like many people ain't feeling really happy now a days. As for me, i'm as happy as can be! [: ) Don't emo and affect you're studies. CHEER UP PEOPLE! (: "All ways look on the bright side of life!" It's a little motivation to you guys! (:

Life is indeed less entertaining now a days. Major blue day(s). ): I wonder will i start emoing again. Hmmmm... OK, shall end my story of crap here.

XOXOs~

Tag replies:

choolian♥: oops~ sorry. Changed! & OK linked the other blog! (:

luminn: RELINKED YOU! (:

Jaslyn♥: ooo ic, then does the others know about it? Yea, you're damn wet! Lucky u came to my house to shower. X: & huiting's shirt is so wet due to her.... LMAO~ x:

ïmpεrfëctsàndy: not really a gay la! Just gay = happy! so you don't have to avoid me. Anyway now you're damn far away from me ):

minhui: ooo ic, go create than i can link you & tag u as well! dude's a for guys. hahas~ you nd to chnge you habit!! X:

Hazel: hahas~ OKs. tag more often alright! (:

huifang: ooops~ no nd la, u have AHEM to give you already. So that's already a big satisfaction! Hmmmmm, if i give u than whr's mine also. HAHAS~ yea, meet up soon. Miss you! ):

ïmpεrfëctsàndy: ms lim, see you request for a reply i did reply you. Sorry, i have been really really busy. I also have no time to really chat on msn as well. Why did u talk to me that time on msn? for?

Are you an luo zhi xiang fan?

How well do you really know his songs?
Listen to the song & guess what is the songs. (: ENJOY!

♥ 是什麼旋律　讓我想起你

總是擔心你的那個我　到底為什麼

這一秒我哭了　無法多看你的背影

都已經失去了所有　那現在的我　還在等什麼

I'm going home to a place where I belong

TAG REPLIED!
Cause i have nothing much to blog about, just studying today & yesterday was a depressing valentine's! DANGGGG! )':




KELLEY(:- UPDATED! hahas~ thanks for you appreciation! (: love you! (:
ïmpεrfëctsàndy- yoyo! (: hellos! Thanks for tagging! I'm not a man, I'm a gay! LMAO! You're evil for saying i look like a man. ): It's alright, used to ur multi post. hehes.
Jaslyn♥- haiz~ i will. thnks anyway my dearest! Ooo ic, what outing? o_0?
Joanna ;- sweet jojo! Thnks for being my valentine! Hhahas~ happy belated valentine's day to you too!
BlurStar =)- hello, thnks! yea, same to you too! yea, crazy until i gt nth to say about u that day man! & thnks for tagging too.. ZOMG, ur card is really very very shocking. Do that to your bf in future not to me anymore, i will have a heart attack!
minhui- my dear, thnks! same to you too yeah! (: btw, i'm nt a dude. I'm a babe. haahs~ Do you have a blog? I want to link you up!
Peichin- hey thanks! you too yea! ENJOY IT! Btw, lost you link! Care to give it to me again. Accidently deleted my blog once, lost quite lot of links. :/
heroducky =P- ok, enough of ur 虚怀若谷 & INNOCENT!! OK OK! My dearest ahma ahgong is the best & she LOVES ME TO THE MAXXXXX! hahas~ happy?
Hazel- my dear, thnks! Same to you yea! LOVES~
choolian- hey, thanks! You too yea! I was pretty shocked to see that you tagged me. hahas~








Maybe I was naive
Got lost in your eyes and never really had a chance
♥ My mistake I didn't know to be in love

I'm not your princess
This ain't a fairytale
I'm gonna find someone someday who might actually treat me well
This is a big world
That was a small town
There in my rear view mirror dissapearin' now

neither did it started nor ended

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY!!! (:
Will you be my valentine? LMAO! X:
Spend this day with your special someone..
making it a memorable one!

Of all the years celebrating valentine's day, this year was the best! It really was!
Although I'm spending it with my ♥girlf(s), and not someone that is really special..
BUT IT STILL ROCKS BIG TIME!!

Thanks my secret admirer(s) for the rose! So darn sweet!
Those lovely 4 people, and lim er xing for the major weird card! ZOMG~
First rose from someone and it has nothing to do L♥VE!
Still, I'm happy & touched!
Always wanted to receive rose from people! (:
You're thoughts will always be kept a part of my special memory.
THANKS TO THOSE PEOPLE WHO ALSO DISTRIBUTED SWEETS IN CLASS YTD!
Thanks those i wished happy valentine's day for replying my message.
Thanks those to tagged my tagboard & wishing me happy valentine's day too!
LOVE YOU GUYS! (:





See the picture above, the artificial rose? Yeps, that's my gift to them; fellow ♥girlf(s) & my stead! I wasn't really sure about giving them valentine's present, cause not really recovered over the incident then. However due to my everlasting happiest I'm having now, i made a last minute decision to get on with a plan to say i won't be giving them this year! How sweet can i be? Hahas~ X: I SPENT QUITE A LOT ON YOU GUYS MAN! Better appreciate it!



Well, the spirit of giving! That was all i was thinking of when i got them their gifts. Spending way beyond my budget & i even paid for every single thing... ALONE! Some people still own me! Hais~ I was damn high yesterday, for the camp & after school. I guess the love bug hit on me.. oops~ x: I was willing to be very high, until i can no longer bother to do so.
(the night walk is fun! Sprayed water till i was very wet, headed home to shower and a few other head along too. Hate the humidity yesterday)






(Did'nt really do a lot of stuff, i feel sinful. OK, i still do more of such stuff another day!)
Sec 5s stayed up until 3am (played poker cards, didn't gambled), after that huiting & i can't take it any longer ... We slept on the tables & set out the sleeping bag that we made it look like a bed. So damn tired, but still the 1 hr + nap definitely worth while. After that was asked to wake up around 4+ to head to mac for breakfast. ZOMG, i think i'm really gonna turn into a fat pig at this rate. I kept eating yesterday, i still wanna go on a diet! Geez, I'm feeling very sinful! ): After that came back, didn't really chat when feng asked me to.. ended up sleeping huiting too. When i woke up awhile i saw didi, laifeng & peiru, all taking a nap. LOLS.



9+ i guess or later, was disturbed my RED CROSS's music for their fancy drill. I guess they were heading some where to do it. I have no idea.

(didi left) After stoning awhile, we went to clear up laifeng's classroom. And all of us pop, slept on the table. I felt as if sec 5s are pigs. OOPS~ X= Went to see the sec 1s & 2s doing the foot drill. Nothing much, then huiting & i went to look for claudia to pass her her slippers before receiving laifeng's sms saying that we can go home!

So rushed back, got ready & left. I slept from 12+ to like 4.15pm. So damn exhausted!
Alright ending here,

Reply tags at night!
TOODLES, my dearest valentine(s)

♥ If you still exsisted as a part of me and not a memory..

How would this First Valentine's Day be with you around?

A joyous one, or just like another other day in the memory of being together.

Haiz~

It will always be unknown,

You're just part of that memory now, no longer what i will want to know.