Mentally drained..

I'm so drained! It has been happening to me for the past few days. I'm really losing hope. Is it possible to even complete this project? They say it's easy, but it's killing me. I never feel so demoralised when it comes to this. Really... I'm exhausted. Really really really exhausted. D': Can I reach my goal? I really hope I can, cause I won't be able to survive if it doesn't come true. TT_____TT


 DOOM DAYS  ... UNPLEASENT MUCH!



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I made up my mind, before falling deeply and start being all emotional and shit. I'm gonna forgo everything. I'm going to keep my mind at it. I really am tired of feeling jealous, unhappy and sad because of what someone does. It's like my world revolves around the person. I'M NOT THAT KINDA OF GIRL ANY MORE! ONCE IS ENOUGH! NO MORE! GO AWAY EH EH EH EH!! (: Goodbye to the feelings I have and I've to fight in this process. Cause I ain't finding love no more. Wait for it to arrive at my door step. HWAITING!

You don't know what it's like.

I'm trying to look for a person who I can sought to in this horrible time which my head & heart aren't feeling as one, but a mixture of different emotions. I realised it's great to listen to old songs, sometimes these songs has some solution to the feeling you're feeling now.

I really want to know what's going on in your mind, cause I'm hating how I feel towards you and hoping you do the same too. I act as if I can't be bother whenever I see you, but yes in fact I care a lot! I just don't like to show it. I've see loads that crushed me recently, so now I'm on the verge of letting go of the feelings I have towards you. But today I felt like you may be avoiding me or something (maybe I think too much) but I hope it won't be true. It will be good to hear a little from you or a little action so I can decide. If not this post will mark an end to everything. Not going to remember the feelings, letting everything go. Go back to the moment where we're just really friends in good talking terms and merely more. (I really do hope I'll be able to do it)

I'll be deceiving myself

if I'd believe you'll feel the the same way as I do....

WOAHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!! ALL RELIEVED AFTER TYPING THIS POST! Need not keep everything stuck in my chest. Since I can't find anyone now, blogging it out is the best way. I hope I'm giving an opportunity to change the mistakes I made in the past. Cause I don't want to be that little love obsessed girl who emo all her life. I've just recovered, I don't want to experience it all over again.

I've a test tomorrow, shall get back to it with a load taken off my chest! (:

Things you gotta know...

One Of Us

When you pick yourself up you get kicked to the dirt.

(2 pictures of expression)

I thought I could take an air breather, but yesterday was the day that I realised I need to get back to the mode I've been in the past. I suddenly felt the urge overflowing within me. I started realising I can't seat back thinking that everything is gonna be fine. I can't pretend any longer. All this smiles and stuff, certain days are real, but some other days aren't. Really tired of trying to look good.

All that is happening is really causing me to lose my happiness. I really wish I could hang out really often with people that made my world an awesome one. At least, that's the only factor that adds colour to my life. I'm so tired.... is there any way out if this? I'M REALLY STRESS UP! I'm even losing 1/2 of my life span. I need chill pills and my life!

I need to get out of this hetic life and look at some beautiful things.

Slow down, you're walking too fast. ):

I'm running on empty...

Somehow I knew I'll be stuck in this situation. (it's a matter of time...)
I'm feeling all emotional, even an urge to cry.
I really think that I'm unable to maintain what I've achieved. ):
I know loads of people thinks I'm able to do well, and definitely I don't want to disappoint them.
But my results are forever like a roller coaster....

I really don't know how to carry on.
Seeing everyone around me putting so much effort into their work.
I think I've not been putting much effort as I used too... & I'm starting to feel more lethargic nowadays.
Too much to do, starting lesson as 9am daily.

Everything is not making sense and I feel so demoralised.
I somehow don't feel like studying any longer.... really really exhausted!
I really wish I could just do what I did in year 1.1.. well at least I don't have to face so much more.

What's more with all the teenage stuff.
SERIOUSLY, GET OVER IT... IT'S NOT POSSIBLE... THERE'S SOMEONE ELSE.

Sighhhhhh, I HATE MY LIFE!!!



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I've gotta find some way
To fumble right through this

In the air,

(The picture is for me)

Congrats to the those around me for finding your special ones. ^^
You guys gotta continue staying happy yea?
Don't make relationship a distraction, studies are important.


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Confession to make, I'm no longer fighting my way through to this massing war.
Tired of all this shit!
I'm just going to walk through it, taking things slow.
Why be a gan chiong spider?
I don't work well under pressure, but the opposite.
I really can't be bothered anymore.
Up till now I'm still not done with my work.
I guess people will be thinking, IMPOSSBILE.
But it's real... brain mulfunction.

Dorky, Charismatic and digging the style

#HAPPYT.O.P/TABBI/CHIOSEUNGHYUNDAY!

Today's the day of the guy who means so much to me in my life. He's charismatic, cool and other words that describe this awesome dude! Despite looking all cool and clean, he's a dork behind those looks of his. Rapping is his thing, and doing it with his style. His rapping is what caught me falling head over heels. I'm willing to support him & his group till the end of time. THIS DUDE JUST MAKES ME GO GAHGAH OVER HIM! (:

HAPPY 24TH BIRTHDAY T.O.P!! ^^

Thanks to him, everytime I feel depressed or what sort... his rapping is what made things right.
I hope you have an awesome day today with people you love. I'll try to get my hands on your upcoming album!! T.O.P Daebak!

‎" Let us be grateful to people who make us happy; they are the charming gardeners who make our souls blossom. " 감사합니다!! ♥