Thoughts on my mind

It has been awhile since I had the urge to write a post to let some negativity and anxiety out.

Starting to feel pretty overwhelmed today with all that I have on hand. This is when where I really want to shut everyone out in my life and only keep the ones that I love dearly.

The final semester is coming real soon and I am afraid I need to extend another one more. I am praying so hard God knows what's best for me and will guide my way despite my sins. Cause I believe God has his plans.

It has been a rough start after turning another year old this year with mishap after mishap. I really wish it could end so I can focus on more important things like school. I would really love to leave school. I have never felt worst after starting higher education and keep feeling really stupid. Never felt any lower.

I think I will stop here. When my thoughts are more well organised I will be back and share happy thoughts.

I can get over the coming semester. Failing or passing I shall just try my best! Jiayou!

Where do you wonder when you are lost

I hate not finding my neutral point right now. I feel like a lost bird, no where close to home. 

Striving for the past 2 years and seeing the people I spend 2 years with all graduating soon sucks so bad. I know it's not a matter of how fast or graduating on time... Cause at the end of the day, you still get that paper. But it still saddens me how life runs this way. ): 

I just wish what God has placed in my path is telling me I can do more beyond what I think right now and it's a sign to let me grow (I know I'm not matured enough recently... Real obvious)! 

Cause as time passes, I feel lonelier and worst off. T_T 

I just need signs from you God, to help me, guide me through this low. I realised I have a lot of lows till the extend that I'm so mentally exhausted. T_T

Whatever it is, life still goes on.

(Ranting here feels so good!)