Denial

Denial is just the easiest way to hide the pain. Avoidence is the easiest way to avoid reality. 

Denial and avoidence. I'm doing both. I though I could do this, to act like everything is fine and it will be alright. But I'm lying to myself... I'm taken by stress and fear. Since that day, I cried for 2 days, on and off. Never knew I had that much tears. 

Now I feel really empty. The dream I used to have, where'd it go? (Queue The Wanted's song: All Time Low) Even my self esteem and personality has drop to an all time zero. The question is... should I be a bummer and spoil their day or just simply hide in my shell and not meet them at all? So much pondering.. so little time.

Seems like I'm still going for denial and avoidence. ㅠㅠㅠ