What's the point?

I just wish I hadn't made that move, took that step cause the world is such a different place at where I am standing now.

Such a screw up.

I need to show that I can pull through this shit despite all the negativity. Cause I am going to prove people wrong!

Goodbye!

Life

Every time I walk pass my secondary school, it always trigger the memory linked to those wonder year. 9 years ago I was there bawling my eyes out worrying about the future. Here I am now, in uni. If you'd ask me 5 years ago where would I see myself 5 years later I never would have imagine this milestone that I have hoped all my life.

Life never ceased to amaze me. How peoples' life turns out differently. Kids we knew back in the days are now having their own families. Never did have I realized I am actually getting really old. But everyone has their own dreams. As for me, it's completing my tertiary education. 

This post doesn't really make a lot of sense since I saw some photos and just started thinking about how old I am getting and every second now shouldn't go to waste!

So tonight I'm gonna cut it out and then restart

Nothing feels right anymore

Right now I'm sleepless and so here a quick post of randomise thoughts which might only make sense to me.

This exact quote is the representation of my life right at this moment and I couldn't have said it any better.

“I am only one, but still I am one. I cannot do everything, but still I can do something. And because I cannot do everything I will not refuse to do the something that I can do.”

– Hellen Keller

HOWEVER.....

The situation right now is really all about re-enforcing her words. Now I don't think it's about me proving a point, but enjoying the process!

YES I CAN, I WILL, I MUST!!!!!!

(Ps: If I'd blog a post every time I can't seem to sleep, this blog ought to have the value of 5 * 13 post! -.-)

Denial

Denial is just the easiest way to hide the pain. Avoidence is the easiest way to avoid reality. 

Denial and avoidence. I'm doing both. I though I could do this, to act like everything is fine and it will be alright. But I'm lying to myself... I'm taken by stress and fear. Since that day, I cried for 2 days, on and off. Never knew I had that much tears. 

Now I feel really empty. The dream I used to have, where'd it go? (Queue The Wanted's song: All Time Low) Even my self esteem and personality has drop to an all time zero. The question is... should I be a bummer and spoil their day or just simply hide in my shell and not meet them at all? So much pondering.. so little time.

Seems like I'm still going for denial and avoidence. ㅠㅠㅠ