Just thought I would do a post to elevate the worst day of my life and coming clean just about works for me. In fact the best solution actually. So here goes...
1) being silly and not listening to proper advice from le best guy friend.
2) pushing the wrong buttons.
I officially screwed up the dynamics with the opposite gender.
Sorry I tend to overthink tons of stuff and sometimes hate people who just don't come clean and play stupid mind games. I am just kinda innocent about it all, after all I am inexperienced and shit. But it doesn't matter, it's better than letting things get all crazy and stuff right? But still sad though, cause just a really nice guy and I guess I am saying I kinda feel something but more towards the comfortable side. So hopefully no hard feelings and I don't want to spoil the way we are in school and stuff, cause it's just really being friends with guys.
But after today, I definitely still feel something but the way I was all crazy emotional when I was a teen. Hahaha, still funny how I fell for the same trap twice! WHAT THE.......... To Lorraine: WHY ARE YOU SO SILLY?!! PLEASE JUST REMIND ME TO NEVER BE SO SILLY TO SELF CONFESS AGAIN. Like hell, twice really?! LORRAINE HAVE YOU EVER LEARN YOUR LESSONS?! Hahaha, I guess I will just look back and say I did spend 23 years trying so hard to find a boyfriend IF I ever get married. But I really really wish I had one... cause I am starting to feel the aging process and worry. But the Feng Shui master said I won't find 1 till 27....... That's really old...... I should have known better to then to act as if I know the signs. I just fell flat on my ass. CAN I EVER NOT FEEL AWKWARD. NOPE. WHO AM I KIDDING.
Ah, regarding pushing the wrong buttons. I really can't be bothered right now, cause karma slapped me in the face for laughing at someone. Let's just leave it as that.
Phew, I feel better for spilling beans and posting. Well next up on my list while officially striking off boyfriend, is getting back to my baby... BOOKS. Sigh, how I wish our relationship this sem is better. PLEASE I NEED TO PULL GPA. SO NO MORE SLACKING AND THINKING OF SILLY BOYS. I'm done. Sometimes I wonder if I should ever just be a nun.., YA.. I still can't let go of not finding a boyfriend! (Stop looking, if it's meant to be it will be) I need to stop this shit and getting my proper sleep.
Just realised how every semester I have to meet with some stupid setback...
Goodnight world!
Till next time which I believe is a long while.... :D
Sorry I tend to overthink tons of stuff and sometimes hate people who just don't come clean and play stupid mind games. I am just kinda innocent about it all, after all I am inexperienced and shit. But it doesn't matter, it's better than letting things get all crazy and stuff right? But still sad though, cause just a really nice guy and I guess I am saying I kinda feel something but more towards the comfortable side. So hopefully no hard feelings and I don't want to spoil the way we are in school and stuff, cause it's just really being friends with guys.
But after today, I definitely still feel something but the way I was all crazy emotional when I was a teen. Hahaha, still funny how I fell for the same trap twice! WHAT THE.......... To Lorraine: WHY ARE YOU SO SILLY?!! PLEASE JUST REMIND ME TO NEVER BE SO SILLY TO SELF CONFESS AGAIN. Like hell, twice really?! LORRAINE HAVE YOU EVER LEARN YOUR LESSONS?! Hahaha, I guess I will just look back and say I did spend 23 years trying so hard to find a boyfriend IF I ever get married. But I really really wish I had one... cause I am starting to feel the aging process and worry. But the Feng Shui master said I won't find 1 till 27....... That's really old...... I should have known better to then to act as if I know the signs. I just fell flat on my ass. CAN I EVER NOT FEEL AWKWARD. NOPE. WHO AM I KIDDING.
Ah, regarding pushing the wrong buttons. I really can't be bothered right now, cause karma slapped me in the face for laughing at someone. Let's just leave it as that.
Phew, I feel better for spilling beans and posting. Well next up on my list while officially striking off boyfriend, is getting back to my baby... BOOKS. Sigh, how I wish our relationship this sem is better. PLEASE I NEED TO PULL GPA. SO NO MORE SLACKING AND THINKING OF SILLY BOYS. I'm done. Sometimes I wonder if I should ever just be a nun.., YA.. I still can't let go of not finding a boyfriend! (Stop looking, if it's meant to be it will be) I need to stop this shit and getting my proper sleep.
Just realised how every semester I have to meet with some stupid setback...
Goodnight world!
Till next time which I believe is a long while.... :D
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