It might just be a sudden shock.

"You can shed tears that she is gone,
or you can smile because she has lived.
You can close your eyes and pray that she'll come back,
or you can open your eyes and see all she's left.
Your heart can be empty because you can't see her,
or you can be full of the love you shared.
You can turn your back on tomorrow and live yesterday,
or you can be happy for tomorrow because of yesterday.
You can remember her only that she is gone,
or you can cherish her memory and let it live on.
You can cry and close your mind,
be empty and turn your back.
Or you can do what she'd want:
smile, open your eyes, love and go on."





Life is really unpredictable, you don't know when someone will just disappear from your life and never return. All the agony... all the pain and sorrow.

Have anyone thought about life, how fragile it might be.
A close friend jumping around you happily and next you're attending his/her funeral?
Life is unpredictable, i learnt that today.
I have all those foolish thinking about suicide, now i won't ever think about it anymore.
The agony of parents, today i truly understand it.

I attended a funeral today, although I'm not close to him.. after all we used to be classmates.
I was shocked, idk how to react in that situation.
All i knew was my head was blank and just followed blindly.
Sigh, i felt the grief, the sorrow, the pain the mum felt.
My heart felt the ach, just seeing his mum.
Sigh, all the agony. :/

Learnt to appreciate life and dont take things for granted any more.
Sigh, i really learnt to appreciate life, treasure all those who care about me.
(i'm feeling perplexed...)






Rest in peace...


Sigh...